Posts with tag #romance

Mature Love | Stronger Together: The Soundtrack

Author: Estrella Rose
Tags: #thriller #romance #detective #crime #music
Hello, my sweet estrellitas! I know I disappeared from sight for a while and wasn't gonna show up at all. So, in order for you not to think I'm not active anymore, I wanna publish one of the soundtracks from my book series "Stronger Together". I spent a lot of time choosing what to post, but in the end, I decided that my next song would be a little sad. I want to introduce you to "Mature Love", a soundtrack from "The Sins Of The Past". Book 1 from the series I mentioned before. This song was written approximately at the same time as "Toxic Closure", a song that I published one month ago (by the way, you can go to my YouTube channel and listen to it if you want). This song tells us a story of a character who is not the lead. It's about the recurring character – a woman who lived a wild enough life when she was young, and she's committed lots of sins. They are the reason why she still has to pay for them, even if it's been almost 20 years since the day she did the worst thing in her life. "Mature Love" is about this woman's love for a man who literally pulled her up from the bottom and became a shoot of the sun in her life. The one who didn't care what she did in the past and loved her for what she was. Their relationship started at a mature age and wasn't what the younger characters of this story had. It's much quieter, deeper, and more true. It seems like two lonely people met each other, gave a loyalty pledge, and should've lived happily ever after. But alas, fate had different plans for this couple. They weren't destined to be together. And the woman thinks that's the cost of her sins and the life she lived at her young age. After I finished working on "The Criminal Diaries", I fully focused on music for my book series and started a new project that I talked about on my accounts. It's called Against The System, and it's dedicated to the music band from my series. I've created a separate YouTube channel (ATS_Official1) for them to post all the things related to them. I cannot give you more information yet, but I can say that I'm going to publish Member Introduction videos very soon, as well as their first PRE-DEBUT single. Don't worry, I will tell you more about it soon. Just wait for a while. So, follow news on my accounts and website, subscribe to the channel, and choose your crush. Thank you for your attention! Have a nice day! Love, Estrella Rose. Mature Love (English): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Sp5O6ztFgco Read more

Chapter 1

Author: sviroxi.xxx
Tags: #romance #lifesituation
Sonya and Snezhka were sitting on the street near the store, they talked for a long time, and suddenly fell silent And immediately the laughter of the guys was heard from the street, who, seeing us, went into the store The girls were sitting at the table and thinking about them, what would happen next They came and sat down near Sonya and Snezhka The guys are looking at them And they say girls, can we sit next to you? They answer, well, sit down Among the guys there was (Dima, Kolya, Kirill, Danya, and just for fun, a little boy) There wasn’t enough room for two guys Dima asks Snezha for water, let him drink She takes it, throws it at him and says drink He takes it, drinks the water and goes up to Snezha He takes it by the neck and gently hands the water to her mouth She doesn’t hold back and spits the water out of laughter at him Sonya starts filming it all on video The guys are laughing Everyone is laughing Snezha tells everyone why are you laughing, it’s not funny, holding herself back from laughing She takes Dima’s hand and kisses him in front of everyone, and walks away with him far away, leaving Snezha among the guys Sonya: where? To her the guys want to talk But here comes Danya And Sonya is shocked, thinks what he is doing here He takes her hand, and kisses her in front of everyone All the guys sit in shock Is one of them saying what the hell is going on here? The smile in the circle disappeared.. His thoughts: who is this? Why did he kiss her, okay I don't care about her, but damn why is this? It was clear from him that he was confused and sad The guys noticed this Danya and Sonya went to Dima and Snezh The guys started asking in the circle Why did he become so angry/sad? He says that it is not true, and he is ordinary But it is clear from him, and Kirill noticed it too Kirill is talking to the circle Do you like her? Kolya thinks: damn I don't know myself like no Kolya answers: no fuck she gave me away Kirill suspected something but didn't show it Kirill answers: well of course The guys started talking heart to heart At that time in the snow and Dima: They were standing on the bridge by the water, where it was very quiet and all you could hear was the wind. She was saying something to him smiling, but suddenly fell silent, and then Dima came closer to her and took her hand Dima said quietly: I really like you Snezhka just smiled nervously: haha ​​is that true? And at that moment he pulled her to him and kissed her. The wind blew her hair, the lanterns shone directly on them, and the water was roaring below. She hugged him by the neck and said with a joyful smile: If this is a dream, I don't want to wake up. Dima smiled, leaned his forehead against hers and said quietly: this is not a dream, my princess) Dima and Snezhka stood for a moment, he took her by the waist and gently kissed her neck, Snezhka got goosebumps from this Snezhka: Dima, don't do this and she giggled gently Dima: why? You like it, you can see it Snezhka: no, you don't like it, she said smiling Dima said: good Then they stood hugging near the bridge, Snezhka rested her head against Dima and smiled. Danya and Sonya came to Dima and Snezhka Then Kolya was riding his hoe and stopped to talk to Snezhka and Dima. Kolya stood by the hoe, pretending that he didn't care at all, while Sonya laughed at Dani. But when Danya leaned too close to her, Kolya's jaw tightened with anger. Snezha noticed this immediately and quietly pushed Dima to the side: - Look at him, he's going to throw Danya off the bridge right now. Dima just laughed. Sonya was standing next to Danya, but her eyes kept catching Kolya's. It annoyed her that he was silent and hiding his emotions, as if she was nobody to him. And then Danya took Sonya's hand and said: Shall we go for a walk downtown? Kolya abruptly turned the hoe on, interrupting him: - Sonya, let's go for a ride. There was silence. Danya looked at Kolya, and Sonya barely held back a smile. - And what if I want to go for a walk with Danya too? she said it on purpose. Kolya gripped the steering wheel tighter and replied quietly: - Well, then go. But you could tell from his voice that it really touched him. Sonya looked at him for a few seconds, and then she went over to the hoe and sat behind him, hugging him by the waist. Kolya froze for a second from her touch. "I knew it," he said quietly with a smile, starting the engine. And Sonya only pressed herself closer to his back, hiding her happy smile so that no one would see. Danya stands in shock Read more

Stronger Together | Stronger Together: The Soundtrack

Author: Estrella Rose
Tags: #thriller #romance #detective #crime #music
Hello again, my sweet estrellitas! I didn't think I'd come back so soon after yesterday's post about finishing the book "The Criminal Diaries". But actually, I was planning to publish a song to celebrate this thing. And I decided not to change my plans, and I'd like to introduce you to the song with the same title as my entire book series – "Stronger Together". I have added the lyrics of this song to my work called "Stronger Together: Song Book," where I have all my songs. "Stronger Together" was written a very long time ago, I think back in May or June 2024, when I just started to learn to work with Suno and came back to writing my own songs. And it was waiting for the moment to shine this whole time. Although the English version was generated with a model that doesn't sound good now, I decided not to change it at all. The lyrics are simple enough, typical for songs like some anthems of strong and sassy people: "We're strong, we're unbeatable, you all will bow to us", but they tell the whole story of the entire series – the characters fell and rose, fought and reconciled, lost and won, but they always stayed together. The meaning of the song is that unity and courage are the key to everything. That there's nothing impossible when you have someone who is ready to get through fire and water with you. This song is actually supposed to be performed by the band "Against The System," which consists of the male lead characters from the series "Stronger Together" at the end of the final chapter. But... Honestly, it doesn't fit them at all... It's too simple, too typical, and it's actually not heavy at all. The concept of the band was unclear for a long time, and I didn't know which direction they should've gone. I only knew they should've played rock music. But now, when I finished working on the book "The Criminal Diaries", I started to reflect on the way these guys should sound. That's why I replaced the title of their debut single in the book "The Lost And Forgotten Memories" from "The Story About Us" (a typical anthem of friendship and unity) to "Electric x Magnetic" (by the way, you can listen to both of these songs on my YouTube channel). So, I don't exclude that "Stronger Together" may remain just one of the soundtracks of the series/the book, and the men perform a different song in the final chapter – I can write something specifically for this or actually remove any mentions of it. However, all of this doesn't matter... And by the way, what do you think of the idea of making "Against The System" a separate AI music project made by me? And who would be your favorite member among these four members? Thank you for your attention! Have a nice day! Love, Estrella Rose. Stronger Together (English): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GUtS6UxmMRg Stronger Together (Russian): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8p9OX-M42i8 Read more

The Criminal Diaries: It's Finally The End (But I'm Not Sure)

Author: Estrella Rose
Tags: #thriller #romance #detective #crime #final
Hello, my sweet estrellitas! So, it's been really long, but here it is, the FINAL CHAPTER of "The Criminal Diaries". "Finally!" – that’s what the characters would say if they were standing in front of me. To be honest, it’s a little sad to finish this project, which I’ve given so much energy and effort to, but which also helped me get through a hard time during its writing process. "The Criminal Diaries" is now my favorite work ever, and I can confidently say that it’s strong, mature, bold, and candid. Though I didn't plan this book to be as heavy and depressing as it turned out. It just happened that way. I wrote and thought, and came up with something that might cause an explosion on the spaghetti factory on your head. So, what’s next? Do you think I’ll wrap up the "Stronger Together" series just because this book was planned as the last one? No, I’m not putting a dot in the series' history. Vice versa, I’d like to continue developing the "ST" universe, despite the opinion that you'd better focus on something new rather than hang on to the old. Yes, "The Criminal Diaries" is currently the last book in the series, but who knows, maybe I’ll wake up one morning and think, “I need MORE!” five or seven years from now. For example, between writing "The Lost And Forgotten Memories" (2016) and "The Criminal Diaries" (2024), eight years passed. So, I'm not sure yet whether this is truly the last book. I also don’t exclude the possibility of writing some spin-offs to tell the stories of other characters from the series (let me know who you’d like to read about in a spin-off – that could inspire me). Maybe there will be alternative stories that explore things that never happened in the main books. Or just some short stories that are connected with the series but not included in the main plot. Anyway, I have a lot of ideas, but they’re all still in the brainstorming stage. Right now, my main focus is on the music from the "Stronger Together" universe. I still have many tracks waiting for their moment to shine, and I’ll be releasing them one by one. I’m also working on a few more projects, but I’m not ready to share details just yet. And finally... I want to sincerely thank everyone who, over the past 11 months, has shown interest in "The Criminal Diaries", added the book to their libraries, liked, and commented on it. I’m even grateful to those who just read the synopsis, ran through one page, read one word, and moved it onto the "trash" list. I also want to mention those who came back and read every new part as it came out. I see it all, and I’m truly happy this work has managed to attract some attention. And I’ll be even happier if you decide to share the link to this book on social media and tell those who might be interested in it. Love, Estrella Rose. FicFan: https://fic.fan/readfic/01944120-1b52-766e-9dbe-5b5ae2545a46 Read more

The Criminal Diaries: Chapter 49. In The Embrace Of The Marriage Night

Author: Estrella Rose
Tags: #thriller #romance #detective #crime #update
Hello, my sweet estrellitas! We’re almost at the finish line – the last but one Chapter 49 of "The Criminal Diaries," is now available for reading. It's quite short and focused on our newlyweds, who have sent all the guests home to rest after such an eventful day and have gone off to spend their first marriage night together. A night they’ve been waiting for a very long time (especially the men – not hard to guess why). Honestly, I spent a lot of time wondering whether this chapter was even necessary, since it’s dedicated entirely to romantic moments like “I love you, I want you.” Moreover, it was originally really long, and there were a lot of details. Especially after I added scenes with the second couple. But actually, when I finished working on "The Lost and Forgotten Memories", where, I can remind you, the wedding chapters were originally supposed to be, there was no wedding night scene at all. I wrote it because another couple, who got married in the early version of "The Sins of the Past," had one (though that scene wasn’t always in it). Nevertheless, after thinking a lot, countless edits, and removing some moments with no regret, I decided to keep it after all. Well, I’m no stranger to squeezing things into my stories that barely fit in the first place. To be honest, I can hardly believe that I’ll be publishing the final chapter of this book next week. It feels like just yesterday I decided to write it, spent over a year working on the overall concept, and waited for the moment when I could finally dive into working on it. And now we're getting close to the moment when another one of my “tomes of Brazilian-level drama” is coming to an end. We’ll talk about what I will be doing after this in the next post. But for now, with only a few days left until the book is marked as “Completed”, you can check out my other works and explore the books from the "Stronger Together" series to get a clearer idea of who is who. I’ll be waiting for you on April 28th – the day the final chapter of "The Criminal Diaries" is released (if I post little pieces every day, I will publish all the parts of the final chapter). I will be waiting for your thoughts on this story, to which I’ve given more effort and energy than ever before. Thank you for your attention! Have a nice day! Love, Estrella Rose. FicFan: https://fic.fan/readfic/01944120-1b52-766e-9dbe-5b5ae2545a46 Book Trailer: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NJ-u_D7Jdn0 Read more

The Criminal Diaries: Chapter 48. Party for everybody – dance!

Author: Estrella Rose
Tags: #thriller #romance #detective #crime #update
Hello, my sweet estrellitas! The closer we get to the finale of "The Criminal Diaries", the less I have to say about the remaining chapters and what happens in them. And honestly, there is no need to get deep into detail because everything can now be summed up in just a few words. The characters begin celebrating the marriage of two loving couples. The men have officially gotten the right to have their girls in the eyes of the law, while the girls can now proudly wear their beautiful wedding rings and have their husbands’ last names in official documents. By the way, what do you think about women changing their last name after marriage? Do you think it’s something they must do? Or are you more flexible about it, believing that true love depends on completely different things? To be honest, the entire book turned out to be so dark and emotionally heavy that these lighthearted chapters stand out a lot against the overall tone. I would even say they don’t match the general concept of the story. But on the other hand, life isn’t only about negativity, and there’s positivity in it, too. Maybe there isn't always a lot of it, but it’s still there. And after everything the characters have gone through, I believe that they do deserve to relax, have some fun, enjoy life, and focus on what really matters to them. While working on the "Stronger Together" series, I always imagined the whole story as a TV show. Like a soap opera that our moms or grandmothers or even we ourselves, ladies, could never miss when new episodes were out. And even though I personally prefer older, time-tested stories (especially those from the ’90s and 2000s) much more, I still find inspiration in modern films and series as well. So if you look closely, you might catch glimpses of things that once inspired me in my work. Or maybe not… Thank you for your attention! Have a nice day! Love, Estrella Rose. FicFan: https://fic.fan/readfic/01944120-1b52-766e-9dbe-5b5ae2545a46 Book Trailer: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NJ-u_D7Jdn0 Read more

All That Remains | Stronger Together: The Soundtrack

Author: Estrella Rose
Tags: #thriller #romance #detective #crime #music
Hello, my sweet estrellitas! Actually, I can publish two songs for Chapter 47 from my book "The Criminal Diaries" that I released today. But now we will talk about just one of them - "All That Remains". I have added the lyrics of this song to my work called "Stronger Together: Song Book," where I have all my songs. I consider this song one of my favorites, and I was waiting for the moment to publish it. And it's one of the tracks, working on which was much easier than most of them – I wrote it super fast and didn't spend too much time generating it in Suno, even though it was hard to choose between several good variations. Well... I mean the English version... I had to spend much more time on the Russian version (Why ain't I surprised?!)... However, there are still some issues. But we can all close our eyes to me having two left hands and the fact that pasting pieces from different versions of songs is obviously not my thing, and just enjoy/express disgust? No? Well, okay (sob, sob)... Alright, it's fine... By writing this song (which is performed at the beginning of Chapter 47 by the character himself), I showed that the male lead character, who was a little crazy (if I say it softly) throughout the book, especially in the middle of the story, stopped running from his past and stopped denying everything that gave him a strong psychological trauma. He used to prefer to pretend that it didn't happen to him and tried so hard to suppress his feelings related to that trauma, but now the man tries to accept it and learn to live with what can't be fixed. He doesn't say everything is forgotten, everyone is forgiven, and everything is in the past. He is in the process. He just started it, and now it's a matter of time. Nevertheless, now the lead male character wants to learn to live with his nightmare from the past and face it bravely. Because... Before he let himself (to be clear, before someone "helped" him) come back to the roots, his relationships with people hadn't been good due to his mistrust and expectations of some bad tricks. There were many problems... There was much suffering... But he's gotta move on and think about his life. The guy does understand it, and he is ready to do this. Of course, with the help of those he loves and is afraid to lose to death. Thank you for your attention! Have a nice day! Love, Estrella Rose. All That Remains (English): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=40midRRrznM All That Remains (Russian): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vyhnDj6Mln8 Read more

The Criminal Diaries: Chapter 47. Until Death Do Us Apart...

Author: Estrella Rose
Tags: #thriller #romance #detective #crime #update
Hello, my sweet estrellitas! I somehow managed to catch some kind of virus, and I’ve almost lost my voice, but that’s not the thing that can stop me from publishing new parts of "The Criminal Diaries". I understand that this whole process has been too long, but I promise, it’s almost over. There are only three chapters left. Three chapters before the book gets marked complete. I actually don’t have so much to say about this part, so this post will be short. As I mentioned earlier, this chapter is about our lovely lovebirds, who will finally celebrate their wedding, bringing joy to their families, who can now exhale with relief, knowing that their dearest people won’t be alone anymore and will make their own families. This time, I’m sure that these couples are getting married at the right moment. Not because of their families' pressure, but because they truly want to… By the way, here’s a little fact: wedding scenes are probably the biggest in the entire series, since they involve the biggest number of people – both mentioned and not. In this chapter, some characters from previous books will return. These are the ones who were kind of forgotten by both the characters and the author, who just couldn’t figure out how to feature them in the story. Many moments had to be shortened and described in just a couple of sentences. And I also added a scene that briefly brings us back to the conflict between the lead male character and the antagonist. At first, I only wanted to mention a bit of information from it, but somehow it grew into a full scene – a little sad at the beginning, but sweet enough closer to the end. Hang in there, guys, the end of another super long story of mine is very close. No matter what, I’ll do everything I can to make sure that the final chapter of this book is released exactly on April 28th, as I announced earlier. Thank you for your attention! Have a nice day! Love, Estrella Rose. Read more

The Criminal Diaries: Chapter 46. Before They Ring Us Up...

Author: Estrella Rose
Tags: #thriller #romance #detective #crime #update
Hello, my sweet estrellitas! I continue to release new parts of "The Criminal Diaries" to bring the story to an end. This time, the focus is on the wedding. To be clear, the preparations just a few hours before the ceremony. And since there’s not much to tell about the plot, I’ll dedicate this post to the early versions of the story. In case you didn’t know, one of the couples getting married in the next chapter was married in the early version of the book back in Book 1, and the other couple tied the knot in Book 4 (back then). To be honest, that always bothered me. I felt that the characters got married too early. But despite that, they lived a happy enough life. In the very earliest version of the story, written in 2011, they even had a daughter, whom the antagonist of Book 2 used to get revenge on the lead female character. But actually, the plot was pretty silly. I just wrote whatever came to mind without worrying if it made sense. I simply wanted to write. But I completely removed that couple’s daughter from the story in the next versions. Then I rewrote the book to avoid mentioning the wedding at all. Nevertheless, I didn’t forget the scenes written for the first wedding and used them to create the engagement scene for that couple in Book 2 and details for the double wedding scene in "The Criminal Diaries". I eventually got some kind of hybrid. I didn’t want to do it at first, but the same thought kept nagging at me for a long time. It was like, “I want a double wedding!” (a reference to a childhood animation movie where two couples got married at once). So I gave in… That’s always how it goes – if an idea keeps coming in my brain, I won’t rest until I make it real. After all these manipulations, Chapter 46 turned out very long, and I deleted most of the moments. Even after that, the volume still didn’t feel short to me. So I had to split it into two parts. In short, this part focuses on the preparations, and the next part is the wedding itself. Yes, I could add these things into one short chapter, but that’s just not me – short descriptions and fast actions are definitely not my thing. The cat will demand food, and the dog will wish you a good night in human language sooner than I will learn to write briefly and not stretch what could be written in a couple of sentences. Still, after five books released over four years, the title of “Queen of Super Long Books” is definitely mine. Thank you for your attention! Have a nice day! Love, Estrella Rose. FicFan: https://fic.fan/readfic/01944120-1b52-766e-9dbe-5b5ae2545a46 Book Trailer: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NJ-u_D7Jdn0 Read more

Imaginary Frenemy | Stronger Together: The Soundtrack

Author: Estrella Rose
Tags: #thriller #romance #detective #crime #update
Hello, my sweet estrellitas! While the characters from my book "The Criminal Diaries" got a chance to relax and play the fool for the first time in a while, I want to tell you about another soundtrack for this one. It's called "Imaginary Frenemy". I have added the lyrics of this song to my work called "Stronger Together: Song Book," where I have all my songs. I managed not to spend too much time finishing work on the English version, even though the earliest variation was good, in the genre of heavy metal, but had too many screams that I don't like, honestly, despite my love for heavy music. The final version turned out to be softer, but it doesn't have any screams, as if someone put a piano or a closet on the little finger on the foot of the artist. This song is about the one who is the reason why the lead male character seems a little crazy. That's an imaginary person, who is a full copy of the lead character, acts like a loyal friend who is ready to listen and comfort, but sometimes becomes a real enemy who encourages him to commit unforgivable things, take revenge, hate, and so on. This imaginary person kinda helps but kinda harms. Meanwhile, the lead character understands that this creature helped him hold on for so long and kept what could have helped him put everything in order if he had wanted. But he does not want to. He tries so hard to escape it. And, the imaginary frenemy is kinda a keeper, and he had been playing this role for many years before he started to hint that time is up, and he should come back to the roots. I actually planned that he would appear in the nightmare of the lead male character. But his role changed little by little and became more ambiguous, even though there's a reason for all of this. And I explain it in this song. The reason why I postponed the publication of it for later is a spoiler. A lot of spoilers, I would say. Anyway, this character played a major role in the life of the lead male character. Of course, he has done a lot of bad things a hundred years ahead, but the star of this whole story did not rush to resist it and woke up when it was almost too late.  Thank you for your attention! Have a nice day! Love, Estrella Rose. Imaginary Frenemy (English): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yYRdyzQAGpM Imaginary Frenemy (Russian): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-YK8A60oDqI English Lyrics: https://estrellarose.tk/song/imaginary-frenemy/ Read more

The Criminal Diaries: Chapter 45. No More Suffering, Time To Exhale

Author: Estrella Rose
Tags: #thriller #romance #detective #crime #update
Hello, my sweet estrellitas! Honestly, I could've ended "The Criminal Diaries" with the previous Chapter 44 since all the main storylines were wrapped up. Nothing super epic is planned in Chapter 45, and the following parts will be pre-wedding and wedding chapters. These are the chapters that were originally meant to be part of "The Lost and Forgotten Memories", but eventually became a part of "The Criminal Diaries" because I decided to continue the story. In this chapter, for example, the characters come together to celebrate a bachelor and bachelorette party and to take a break after everything they’ve been through lately. They let themselves breathe, put their heroic suits aside, and show off their wit. Of course, these chapters were originally a bit different, and I had to edit and adapt them to fit the current plot and at least some level of logic (for example, changing the locations of the celebration). I also had to shorten them since there were way too many unnecessary descriptions. Of course, there’s still much of what may seem unnecessary, but it’s not critical anymore. Besides, I believe that after everything they’ve gone through, my characters do really deserve a good rest, more laughter, silliness, and fun. You decide whether you read the following chapters or not, but I’ve already warned you that they are mostly meant to bring the story to a happy ending. However, these parts will either be completely removed or shortened in the condensed version of "The Criminal Diaries", which I plan to publish after finishing the full version. And the final chapter – now I can say it with a 100% guarantee – will be published on April 28th. Remember this date and come back to read the full version of the book if you’re not a fan of ongoing works and prefer to “swallow” everything at once. And me… I’ll be working on editing and continuing to release music for the series. By the way, about the editing… If you have my books from the "Stronger Together" series in your library, you may have noticed that their length is changing slightly. That’s because I’m editing certain parts I’ve been wanting to fix for a long time but only got time to do it now. These changes will not affect the plot, but they will make the books a little better and fix some logical inconsistencies. There are also a few questionable moments that need to be cleaned up. I’m not going to rush this process, and I’ll keep looking for things to fix without pressure. Of course, it will not magically turn them into top bestsellers, but at least there will be fewer “facepalm” moments that make you want to blush or even disappear into the ground. Thank you for your attention! Have a nice day! Love, Estrella Rose. FicFan: https://fic.fan/readfic/01944120-1b52-766e-9dbe-5b5ae2545a46 Book Trailer: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NJ-u_D7Jdn0 Read more

You're Not Alone | Stronger Together: The Soundtrack

Author: Estrella Rose
Tags: #thriller #romance #detective #crime #update
Hello, my sweet estrellitas! I didn't announce it, but I'd like to share another song for my book "The Criminal Diaries". It's called "You're Not Alone", and it's supposed to be performed by the co-lead male characters for the lead character in Chapter 44, which I published today, fully or partly. Just like in the case of the song about the angels that I posted one week ago (by the way, you can check it out if you haven't listened to it), I have both English and Russian versions available for listening. The lyrics of the song have been added to my work "Stronger Together: Song Book," where I have all the lyrics from the songs I've written.  I call it a forgiveness song because it tells us about those who apologize to their friend whom they hurt a lot. About the people who understand their friend's pain, take the blame, and do not deny that they have never been loyal and decent folks. This song is about them being ready to work things out and do their best to make it right. No matter what, this man still means a lot to them, and they do not want to lose him. And even if that man himself is a walking catastrophe and gave them a lot of reasons to hate him, there's no talk about the offence. These people completely understand why he did it to them. They do not excuse him. They just want to understand him. They want to give their friendship a chance for the good things that connect them. Though a song for this chapter was supposed to be very simple, childish, naive, easy... Like, "birds sing, bunnies ain't afraid, kittens are with moms, puppies feel warm". But after thinking a lot and getting some suggestions from AI (that's my best helper that always offers me ideas that can really inspire me), I realized that I couldn't write anything connected with songs for children. So, I decided to choose a different way, and then things went much better. I think the work with music for this song was the hardest one I had had before. Honestly, I cursed everything in the world as I tried to change music several times, trying to get rid of the terrible quality, which the AI model had like one year ago when I wrote the lyrics. There was even a moment when I wanted to give up on all of this, but I put an end to this business and got the result that turned out to be not perfect but listenable enough. Thank you for your attention! Have a nice day! Love, Estrella Rose. You're Not Alone (English): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dmaEENK7YTE You're Not Alone (Russian): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LDGO2xv0iHw Read more

The Criminal Diaries: Chapter 44. Where Were You All Before?

Author: Estrella Rose
Tags: #thriller #romance #detective #crime #update
Hello, my sweet estrellitas! It's not easy for the lead male character of "The Criminal Diaries" to realize that the chaos from the previous chapters was actually real, even if it felt surreal. And it leads to an uncontrollable breakdown that continues in Chapter 44, following the confession that he makes to the co-lead characters about the unforgivable things he had to endure. Something that shattered his psyche back when he was a child. Any attempts to calm him down bring nothing good and only seem to make the situation worse. Emotions take over, everything the lead male character has been holding inside for years finally bursts out, and he no longer has the strength to keep the pain inside. But after the confession, it seems like he regrets telling his friends about that terrible thing and wishes he could take his words back, expecting to hear that such things cannot happen – the same words he had heard before, more than one time. And once again, he tries to push away those who are ready to give him a hand, cursing them for everything, speaking of his hatred for them, and asking angrily why they were not there when he needed someone’s support. He cannot believe that the situation might actually be different this time. That at least the girls are ready to stay by his side and support him in everything. And even the men begin to wonder whether they have been doing the right thing. But will they have enough courage to overcome their resentment, try to trust this man again, and prove that they can and truly want to be his friends? This chapter is expected to be very intense and filled with harsh confessions and secrets that will answer the questions that have been troubling the characters until now. And honestly, no matter how many times I reread this chapter, I always have tears in my eyes because the emotional intensity in it is overwhelming. However, I recently began to wonder whether the events in it might be unfolding too quickly. Maybe I shouldn't have brought this storyline to its conclusion so fast. I'm also a little unsure about the ending of this chapter because I don't know whether what happens there is logical. I don't exclude that I may decide to change it a little later or even remove some parts altogether. But overall, it's one of my favorite parts, and I'm glad that I chose this turn of events, which is very different from the calm and peaceful direction that was originally planned. Thank you for your attention! Have a nice day! Love, Estrella Rose. FicFan: https://fic.fan/readfic/01944120-1b52-766e-9dbe-5b5ae2545a46 Book Trailer: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NJ-u_D7Jdn0 Read more

Angel With A Wounded Soul | Stronger Together: The Soundtrack

Author: Estrella Rose
Tags: #thriller #romance #detective #crime #update
Hello, my sweet estrellitas! It's been a while since I posted the latest song for my book "The Criminal Diaries". And today, I would like to fix it and tell you about another attempt of mine to pretend to be a talented songwriter and introduce you to the work called "Angel With A Wounded Soul". If you saw my post about Chapter 42, you may already know that I talked about this track, which is the opposite version of the song "Monster With A Criminal Soul" that I published in December 2025. I want "Angel..." to play in Chapter 43 during the battle of angels and demons that I did not add for fun – I made it the symbol of the fight inside the lead male character. By the way, you can listen to the two versions of this song – English and Russian. The lyrics can also be found in my work called "Stronger Together: Song Book". I want to specify that I did not plan to write this song when I finished the monster version. But when I came up with an idea of adding a scene of a fight between angels and demons, I got a desire to make a so-called response to it on behalf of the angels. It wasn't hard to change the lyrics, but I had to spend a lot of time working on the music because I couldn't do anything good and memorable. By the way, the music for the Russian version was "born" as a cover of the English version, and it turned out to be even better and more emotional. Yes, maybe, the quality is not always good, but I think both versions sound pretty good, even though they weren't lucky to end up on the computer of such a worthless folk with no ear as me. While the song about a monster is about the dark side of the lead male character, this track is about his light side. And in this case, the angels are about to get a victory. The darkness has not taken the man out. There's still something light inside him. Even if evil people did terrible things to him for ages and remained indifferent in front of his desperate scream for help, hatred did not take full control of him. He was lucky to meet those who did not let it happen and literally saved the man from full self-destruction, even if they never knew it. I don't want this song to be a certain attempt to excuse the character after everything he has done. You, guys, will decide if he deserves a chance to get a chance to prove that he has not turned into a heartless monster. And even if the monsters seem strong and unbeatable, the angels are not going to give in and are determined to heal the wounded soul and not let it be swallowed by the dark. Thank you for your attention! Have a nice day! Love, Estrella Rose. Angel With A Wounded Soul (English): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BXXoHzbMDAo Angel With A Wounded Soul (Russian): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ONzvVgARZt8 Read more

The Criminal Diaries: Chapter 43. The Battle For The Shattered Soul

Author: Estrella Rose
Tags: #thriller #romance #detective #crime #update
Hello, my sweet estrellitas! The previous chapter of the book "The Criminal Diaries" tells us about the lead character who ended up in a world where time flows very differently. A place where he could no longer hide from the truth that found him, no matter how hard he tried to avoid it. And Chapter 43 tells us about a desperate struggle for his life that is happening in the world of the living, while a truly epic battle between merciless demons and merciful angels is taking place in the other world. A battle that symbolizes the struggle within the lead male character, who shows no resistance and does not even try to fight to return to those who need him, despite everything. And unfortunately, the angels are about to lose. They cannot resist the dark forces. And at the same time, the lead character begins to “disappear.” He really does. He starts twisting in agonizing pain. Darkness is about to take him to the other world. His time in the world of the living is running out rapidly, leaving fewer and fewer chances of survival. He understands this and does not try to fight, knowing that he cannot live with what he has learned against his own will. Is this really the end? Will the co-lead characters have to mourn someone who is about to die for real this time, without any chance of a miracle? Will even a meeting with someone the lead male character never hoped to meet again fail to change the outcome? The idea of this battle between angels and demons came to me somewhere in the middle of the book’s editing process. I wanted to write something inspired by the Final Fantasy games. The battle scenes in these games are always impressive, and they are actually breathtaking in videos made by some users with great editing. And I think this idea was pretty good for my concept, in which those who mean a lot to the lead male character are fighting for his life. I did my best not to have this battle added just for fun, simply because the boss inside my head told me to do it. But if this battle were not added, the episode in the other world would have ended much earlier and would have been far less emotional. So… While this scene may seem like graphomania to someone, I know that there is meaning hidden within it. The meaning that will be understood and discovered by those who read carefully, analyze, and notice even the smallest details. Thank you for your attention! Have a nice day! Love, Estrella Rose. FicFan: https://fic.fan/readfic/01944120-1b52-766e-9dbe-5b5ae2545a46 Book Trailer: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NJ-u_D7Jdn0 Read more

The Criminal Diaries: Chapter 42. Before The Heart Stops

Author: Estrella Rose
Tags: #thriller #romance #detective #crime #update
Hello, my sweet estrellitas! I call what's gonna happen next in the book "The Criminal Diaries" something like "Not enough madness, I need much more”. Here's my attempt to write something slightly fantasy-like, slightly otherworldly, slightly insane in Chapter 42… Why otherworldly? Because the lead male character finds himself in a certain parallel world – between life and death – after a terrible accident outside during a violent hurricane that mercilessly sweeps away everything in its path. And at that moment, no one could help him. So the character ends up in another world – a calm, peaceful one. A place where the soul doesn’t ache. A place where breathing feels easy. It's the place where he will have to wait for his death and go into the world of the dead, or hope that someone will find him and dare to challenge the raging storm to save him. Besides, he will have to return to what he's been running from for most of his life and finally remember who or what broke him so that his mind decided to erase it from his memory. Well… Almost everything… It left him some hints of the shocking event that happened to him. And after learning the truth, he will have to make a choice: return to the world of the living and live with this pain for the rest of his life, or let his soul leave his body and go to a place he will never be able to leave. The only question is… Will the girls take the risk and take matters into their own hands? And will the men remain angry even under the threat of losing the person who means a lot to them, after all? This scene was not part of my original plan either. As well as the idea of blocked memories about that terrible childhood incident. I came up with all of this during the writing process (I think it was Chapter 18), and I had to develop the storyline based on that idea. Actually, I try to make the events in my books somewhat realistic. I try not to come up with outrageous nonsense. And I understand that this episode with the lead male character in another world doesn’t fit the concept of the book series. But if you’ve been with me for a long time, you know that if I want to, I will fit what can't fit anywhere. And now, inspired by some fantasy content, I just couldn’t help but add this scene. Yes, maybe it seems absurd, but I like this kind of “madness,” and I consider this chapter one of the strongest and most emotional. While working on it, I cried a lot and clearly pictured every episode in my head. And although I did not plan this parallel between the storm and the calm, and it came to me on its own, I think it perfectly suits everything that happens in the new chapter. Thank you for your attention! Have a nice day! Love, Estrella Rose. FicFan: https://fic.fan/readfic/01944120-1b52-766e-9dbe-5b5ae2545a46 Book Trailer: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NJ-u_D7Jdn0 Read more

The Criminal Diaries: Chapter 41. The Fear That Becomes Reality

Author: Estrella Rose
Tags: #thriller #romance #detective #crime #update
Hello, my sweet estrellitas! The things probably seemed excessively cruel to you in the previous chapter of "The Criminal Diaries". But let's not talk about the fight. Let's talk about the consequences in Chapter 41. The consequences of what made the lead male character lose his mind. The co-lead characters can finally exhale with relief because they gave their best to achieve their goal and arrange a meeting between this man and his girlfriend, who did not die, as we know. Even if they almost did something unforgivable to make it happen. But in the end, our lovebirds are finally reunited and standing face to face. The girl is happy to see him, but she is full of doubt because of everything she has learned. And the man just stands there, dumbfounded as f... hell (!), beaten up, with tear-filled eyes, with no understanding of what is happening. Well… He understands one thing. That he’s an idiot. A brainless idiot who could have avoided all this madness if he had used his head mu-u-u-uch earlier. And now, he has a difficult task ahead of him. I mean, two. To convince his beloved not to leave him, because she is seriously starting to believe that their meeting was a mistake. And explain himself to the men, who are determined to keep their promise and cut all ties with him. In short, the man ran into what he had feared the most – loneliness. The moment when he loses everything and everyone. When people get tired of this dude’s demons. No amount of pleading, tears, breakdowns, or excuses will help him anymore. And he has no idea how he is supposed to clean up this mess. I think now you understand why I said that the lead character will outdo all the previous ones who may seem innocent angels in my post with facts about this book. I came up with this twist during the process of working on "The Criminal Diaries", back when I didn’t know what this story would become, where it would lead, or how it would affect the characters… And to be honest, it lately feels like my characters themselves are guiding me and hinting at which direction I should take next. As if they’re telling me that one path wouldn’t feel right, but another would work much better. Well... My original plan for this story was completely different and eventually turned into something far more emotionally and psychologically intense. The lead character of "The Criminal Diaries" simply refused to be normal. He decided it was better for him to be this way. Some characters choose to be strong, but he did not have the strength or the desire for that. Thank you for your attention! Have a nice day! Love, Estrella Rose. FicFan: https://fic.fan/readfic/01944120-1b52-766e-9dbe-5b5ae2545a46 Book Trailer: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NJ-u_D7Jdn0 Read more

The Criminal Diaries: Chapter 40. Demons From Nightmare Come Alive

Author: Estrella Rose
Tags: #thriller #romance #detective #crime #update
Hello, my sweet estrellitas! You won't obviously be ready to talk about Chapter 40 of "The Criminal Diaries" because there will be no place for shame, conscience, mercy, or anything human. The co-lead characters’ battle with the lead male character continues, and they act much harsher and more decisively this time. In order to achieve their goal, these guys give a damn about the moral principles and forget any kind of decency. They no longer see the lead male character as the person who used to be their close friend. And when I say they have given a damn about everything, I truly mean it. Because something more terrible than brutal, no-holds-barred fights awaits you. The guys begin to intimidate the lead male character and behave like criminals with no feelings or emotions, reminding him of the demons he saw in his nightmare. Meanwhile, his hallucination refuses to let him relax and keeps demanding that he finish what was started. But it turns out it’s not so easy to deal with those who go too far and are so close to committing probably the most terrible and disgusting act in their lives. Something that could make all their close people turn away from them if everyone knew it. Something that forces the lead male character to mentally return to his early years with the thought that something like this may have already happened to him before. Originally, this moment was never a part of my plan. As I mentioned in my previous post, the meeting between the co-lead characters and the lead male character was supposed to be much softer and far less dramatic. Choosing such a cruel and unforgivable turn of events, I completely understood that I was walking on very thin ice and could cross the line at any moment. I swear I tried not to cross the boundary of what is acceptable, but when this moment came to my mind, I couldn’t let go of the desire to include it. Yes, it’s harsh. Yes, it’s painful. Yes, it’s disturbing. But I decided to write it. I chose to show how far a person can go when they are out of their mind, so to speak. And by the way, when I started working on this chapter, I cried a lot over certain scenes that turned out to be overwhelmingly emotional. I honestly didn’t expect that from myself. It turned out to be very intense but very close to the edge. Thank you for your attention! Have a nice day! Love, Estrella Rose. FicFan: https://fic.fan/readfic/01944120-1b52-766e-9dbe-5b5ae2545a46 Book Trailer: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NJ-u_D7Jdn0 Read more

The Criminal Diaries: Chapter 39. Risk That Leads To The Consequences

Author: Estrella Rose
Tags: #thriller #romance #detective #crime #update
Hello, my sweet estrellitas! We're already on Chapter 39 of "The Criminal Diaries". And believe me, the level of tension is higher than ever this time. I would even say that it's almost at the peak. The co-lead characters did not want it until the very end, but they are forced to get into a brutal, bloody fight with the lead character. Yes, they had a chance to avoid it. But these guys choose to risk everything and put themselves in mortal danger at their will. Not to bring their friend back. But to prove the truth and keep their promise. To do one last thing for someone who makes them regret getting in touch with him. This fight is probably the hardest one, much harder than any confrontation with antagonists throughout the entire story of the "Stronger Together" book series. First of all, because they are not fighting just a random man. They do fight someone they considered close. Someone who is no longer going to show mercy and stands just one step away from a complete transformation into a ruthless, heartless creature that is ready to become another bloodthirsty criminal. No mercy. No regrets. No memories of all the good things they have ever shared. Words can no longer prove anything. They all have to use punches and remember every fighting technique they know. To be honest, when I was just working on the concept of this book, I never thought that the lead character would end up suffering from madness like this. Initially, I wanted him just to withdraw into himself for a while, then learn about the girl’s miraculous survival and return to his friends as if nothing had happened. But the longer the work went on, the more insane ideas came to my mind. And this fight scene was never supposed to be like this. It was actually not supposed to exist at all. The idea was that the co-lead characters would chase him around the city after running into him accidentally, convince him not to harm himself at all, ask him to stay, and then finally bring his beloved girl to him. And even though the final version turned out to be long enough, I still really love it. I think this battle fits in surprisingly organically within the current concept of the story. Thank you for your attention! Have a nice day! Love, Estrella Rose. FicFan: https://fic.fan/readfic/01944120-1b52-766e-9dbe-5b5ae2545a46 Book Trailer: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NJ-u_D7Jdn0 Read more

The Sins Of The Past (Updated Booktrailer)

Author: Estrella Rose
Tags: #thriller #romance #detective #crime #booktrailer
Hello, my sweet estrellitas! So, I'm finally posting the post about the last booktrailer for my books from the "Stronger Together" series. It turns out that the publication happens on the day when I celebrate the 4th anniversary of my writing career (I didn't plan it, I swear). Well... If I can call it like this, of course. And since it's happening, why don't I use the moment and celebrate this thing? Now you can watch the updated booktrailer for "The Sins Of The Past", Book 1 from the book series I previously called. It's the book with which everything started on this day 4 years ago. Then and now – I'm still a little afraid to publish my works, and the notifications about likes and comments still make me shake. Though, to be honest, this fear gets weaker. For example, I started to publish my book "The Criminal Diaries" without fear, because I was sure it was good. But as for "The Sins...", I was afraid to publish it because it was my debut work and it had a lot of things I didn't like. I've said it many times, I keep saying it, and I will not stop doing this. There are many things I'd be happy to fix, but I can't call this book absolutely bad (you haven't read the earliest version of it). Even though they say you shouldn't come back to your old works so that you can focus on new works, I always edit my works: deleting something, changing something, adding something... By the way, that's the reason why I started to publish my books in 2022, even though I was ready to start back in 2019. Anyway, if I'd thought my work was 1000% terrible, I would've never published it anywhere. And I wouldn't have worked on it if I hadn't seen the potential. I can't say I've achieved a lot over the past 4 years, but I don't think it's a failure. I have likes, I get views, and I sometimes get comments (okay, let's count bots too). So, it's cool, huh! Well, as for me not making money out of it yet... So, it's my fault! I need to write trendy things, but I write books for my soul. I consider writing my hobby, a way to distract myself and refresh my brain. Well, if I keep working like this, I shouldn't obviously hope to get some income. So, guys, I'm not in despair, and I continue to publish my "masterpieces" that can have your hair stand and can have your eyes come out of your head. Because the only person who can write this kind of bullshit is just me. Thank you for your attention! Have a nice day! Love, Estrella Rose. YOUTUBE: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=97hCdJg6EyI Read more