Hello, my dear readers and those who passed by! I haven't been too active lately, but believe me, I did have something to do and started working on something very interesting that I can't wait to show you. Of course, it's not a new book, but it's something cool, too. But we will talk about it later. But now I want to give you a quick summary of the news. First, I decided to change the design of all my accounts (by the way, what do you think of it?). Second, I couldn't get rid of this thing and replaced the covers of all the books from the "Stronger Together" series. Yes, I did it again. As for the design of the accounts, I was just tired of the previous one, and I wanted something new, fresh, and beautiful. And as for the covers... Actually, I just wanted to improve the quality of the pictures, which weren't good at all. But it somehow happened that I eventually got brand new covers. Maybe, only the background changed, but still. What do you think of these new covers? Do you like these new ones or prefer the old covers?
And I have another piece of news – a publication of the new song from the series. I didn't actually plan to do this, but then I recalled that my debut song "Help Me Breathe" was going to celebrate its second anniversary (you can listen to this song on my YouTube channel). And so, I am ready to introduce you to the song called "Toxic Closure" that became a soundtrack for the book "The Lost And Forgotten Memories" (yeah, I guess it's been a while since I posted a song for other books, but "The Criminal Diaries"). I have added the lyrics of this song to my work called "Stronger Together: Song Book," where I have all my songs. I wrote this song back in the summer last year alongside more tracks that I still want to publish (but I still don't know when the time comes).
In "Toxic Closure", I want to broach the topic of happiness of freedom from a toxic relationship, which the hero of the song is madly happy to end. It tells us about how it got him exhausted rapidly and brought him to a certain boiling point. To the moment when he realised that he was done with it! When the hero finally managed to find the strength to break this vicious circle, ignore the one who was sure that she would press on him again and again. He managed to break free before a certain toxic poison destroyed the victim. Though it's sometimes madly hard to do it for one or another reason: love, an addiction, fear, affection, or anxiety. And after this, the hero didn't break down. He didn't withdraw into himself after the pressure he was put under. He became much stronger. He learned to understand people. He broke contact with those who didn't prove their loyalty with no regret. And he started to appreciate freedom much more. So much that it became a problem to some extent. However, next to the right version, even a fear of losing control of your life and ending up at the mercy of someone who loves to assert themselves at the expense of others can go away slowly, so that the person can feel beloved and happy.
Thank you for your attention!
Have a nice day!
Love, Estrella Rose.
Toxic Closure (English): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y6bI5rZeha0
Toxic Closure (Russian): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yjm8-esPhRE
Read more
Posts with tag #writing
Hello, my dear readers and those who happened to stumble upon my blog by chance! It feels like just recently I published a post about the end of 2024, but now it’s time to say goodbye to 2025. And here I am again with my New Year’s message to all of you. Though, to be honest, the older I get, the less I feel that childhood magic and holiday spirit. But let’s not talk about that… First of all, I'd like to sincerely wish a very Happy New Year to each and every one of you with the hope that all your ideas and desires will come true, and that you'll live in love and care alongside those you love.
Last year, I wished to finish working on "The Criminal Diaries," my fifth book, write a few more songs, and work on the idea of one short story. In the end, I didn’t only do the last thing in this list 'cause I decided that the idea wasn’t very successful. But I am proud that I achieved my main goal for 2025 – I finished writing my book "The Criminal Diaries" from start to end. I created wonderful covers for it and publish new chapters regularly. Some new songs were written as well, and now they are waiting for their moment to shine. Do I consider my new book a success? Absolutely, yes! Not only because I truly love it and consider it one of the most emotional books of mine in a psychological sense, but also because it does have readers, even if there are only two people or somewhat. There is some interest in it, and I can clearly see that in the view statistics. Yes, the actions and moments may be controversial at times. But I consciously choose not to make my characters perfect, and I allow them to be loyal companions, who are ready to go through fire and water for those they love, as well as despicable bastards, who need to find themselves a victim. And I am very glad that there are those who enjoyed that. It's also okay if someone just checked out a few pages and closed the book. Thank you to everyone who stays with me. And thank you to those who don’t show themselves in any way but still take an interest in my work. You are the reason my stories continue to live.
Overall, I can’t say that I’m at the bottom, even though there are still a lot of things I would like to achieve. Anyway, I sincerely thank everyone who subscribed to me this year, checked out my works, added them to their libraries, liked them, and even left comments. Everything matters to me and reminds me that I’m writing something that has at least some chance of being noticed. Maybe it's not perfect, but it's honest, unpolished, and written from the bottom of my heart. And I will continue creating next year as well because I haven’t said or shown everything yet, preparing to celebrate the fourth year of my writing career in February 2026.
Happy New Year, my dear sweeties!
Love, Estrella Rose.
Read more
Author:
KikiYushima
Here are the chapters I currently have in the works:
Flames of Shadow and Sky
A Truce of Trust
in conflict with my heart (new story)
Star Light, Star Flight
Dreams of Twilight
Where Safety Feels Like A Stranger (new story)
I Believe (Deep Within)
On hold:
I Believe (Deep Within)
in conflict with my heart
I expect to have Flames of Shadow and Sky as well as A Truce of Trust done sooner rather than later. Star Light, Star Flight, Dreams of Twilight, and Where Safety Feels Like A Stranger will take longer to do because of the slower nature of writing things by hand.
The latter two are on hold due basically the same reason. I'm currently doing research into the mindset of abusive men and how that impacts the people around them. I need to understand how abusive men think to effectively portray them. In I Believe, Jacques will abuse and demean Blake for two in-universe weeks. For in conflict, that's my genderbent Weiss/Winter AU. Being Atlassian men, they're going to have shades of abuser mindsets. In order to write them effectively and realistically, I need the research.
With everything being the way it is, I'll try to wrap up Flames, Truce, SLSF, Dreams, and Safety within the next couple of weeks. I may not get to posting anything more once December rolls around because I want that to be my research month to try to get this stuff done. I may do some of the December prompts if the site publishes some, but do not expect me to do all 31 of them. I tried that in October and that didn't work out so well.
Read more