sobbing, crying, fucking
December 28, 2023 at 12:53 PM
[Direct messages]
Mick: Hey
Mick: I was thinking
Mick: About all that shit
Ian: And?
Mick: Fuck
Mick: Look man I’m sorry
Mick: I didn’t mean that
Mick: I was worried about you acting up all fucking weird
Mick: Especially with this thing you pulled up with fucking Terry
Ian: And?
Mick: What the fuck man
Mick: If you don’t want to listen to me that’s fine just say it or whatever [deleted]
Mick: It’s just that I’m sorry
Mick: It’s just like one minute you say like everyone hate her and then it turns out that’s not true but just for you
Mick: And I got so fucking confused and still am
Ian: And?
Mick: Are you fucking for real
Mick: Okay then
[Group chat “Uhh”]
[Ian has left the group chat]
Mickey: For fuck’s sake
Mickey: I can’t fucking believe that shit
Mickey: Dramatic bitch
[Direct messages]
Mandy: can you just fucking tell what’s happened PLEASE
Mandy: or i will ask lip and won’t get anything normal because he hates you
Mickey: Fuck fine
Mickey: His fucking mother came back like a week ago
Mickey: Ian was telling me about how she is a giant piece of shit who fucks up everything she sees
Mickey: AND when she pulled another fucking stunt or whatever I called her a piece of shit JUST like Ian does all the time
Mandy: you did that to her face??……
Mickey: THATS THE FUCKING THING
Mickey: I DIDNT
Mickey: I said this to Ian IN FUCKING PRIVATE
Mandy: uhh… now i don’t get it either…
Mandy: that doesn’t sound like him at all
Mandy: i’ll ask lip now i think he may know what’s going on
Mickey: Wait no
Mickey: Fuck
[Direct messages]
Mandy: hey
Lip: Hey, what’s up?
Mandy: wanted to ask the same about ian…
Lip: Well, I don’t know why I am sympathetic to Mickey now, but Ian freaked out on all of us.
Lip: Then he’s just left, not that really long after he kicked Mickey out. In 15, maybe.
[1 new notification]
[Mickey: You’re a fucking bitch]
Mandy: has he been taking his meds?……
Lip: His pill bottles got almost empty, so I assumed he did… Now I’m not even fucking sure. He may have been just flushing them. Has he been under any stress lately?
Mandy: not that i know of
Mandy: maybe his brain is acting up making him overthink things
Lip: I don’t know. Maybe… How’s he and Mickey been doing?
Mandy: great
Mandy: more than great
Mandy: netflix and chill all the way
Lip: Maybe that’s the reason.
Mandy: how come?
Lip: He might’ve thought that his mania may help him to make relationship even spicier… And it kinda went the wrong way. He’s been pretty rude to others too. Overreacting.
Mandy: i see… that sucks ass anyway
Mandy: now i need to SOMEHOW explain this to mick so he won’t think he is a total asshole and won’t close himself in his room for another decade again
[1 new notification]
[Mickey: What did he say]
Lip: That’s his M.O.?
Mandy: you can say that yeah
Mandy: running away bc he can’t help and making it look like he’s angry at the person who he can’t help but he’s actually angry at himself
Mandy: it’s kinda hard to explain but that’s my mick
Mandy: wants only good for others but takes deep dives into shit
Lip: I see… Well, if that’s the problem now - let him know about everything I’ve told you.
Lip: Good luck. That might be tough.
[1 new notification]
[Mickey: Where the fuck are you are you sexting with him]
[Direct messages]
Mandy: what the fuck shithead
Mandy: anyway
Mandy: [14 forwarded messages]
Mandy: so yeah…
Mandy: you good?
Mickey: Fuck
Mickey: It’s still my fault then
Mickey: And what the fuck am I supposed to do
Mandy: have you even fucking read what i sent you?
Mandy: he’s been like that to everyone lately
Mandy: stop blaming yourself already and go find him and talk to him
Mickey: He won’t fucking listen to me and will probably hate me for some time now
Mickey: I don’t know
Mandy: what if he would be in danger
Mandy: he can go back to the fucking club and suck off some old dudes who need viagra
Mandy: he needs you now
Mandy: i can help? we can compose the message together or whatever
Mickey: Fuck fine
Mickey: Give me a couple of minutes
Mandy: you’ve just sobbed?
Mandy: mick
Mandy: it’s ok i have tissues
Mickey: K
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[Direct messages]
Mick: Ian. Look
Mick: I was trying to express the same feelings I had for her just like you probably had too in that moment. And I guess I’ve overstepped boundaries or some shit and I feel really fucking bad about that. And I’m sorry okay? I don’t know where you are right now or with who and I’m scared you may be in danger. I didn’t want to hurt you but it happened. Sorry for acting like a kid
Mick: Text me or call me whenever you can even if it’s like 3am
Mick: I love you
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[Direct messages]
Mandy: you okay? how’s your headache
Mickey: Ibuprofen has just kicked in
Mandy: okay… hope it helps
Mickey: Me too
Mickey: At least I’ll be able to fucking sleep or nap at least
Mickey: Fuck I’ve never knew you can throw up if you’re having a fucking meltdown
Mickey: I should do this more often
Mandy: fuck mick please that sounds so fucked up
Mandy: i’ll get you some of my weed you need it more than me
Mandy: he still didn’t respond?
Mickey: He left me on read
Mickey: It’s already like 1am and we’ve sent this shit at 3pm
Mickey: You have plans for tomorrow?
Mandy: no why?
Mickey: Let’s play something today I don’t want to just fucking drink all night
Mandy: what about you know
Mandy: sleeping?
Mickey: Fuck no
Mickey: And put my phone away somewhere in your room and don’t tell me where it is so I won’t fucking check this shit every other minute
Mandy: what you wanna play?
Mickey: Lego? They’re pretty violent
Mickey: I need some fucking legal violence
Mandy: sounds good lol
Mandy: chips?
Mickey: And ice cream
Mandy: hell yeah
Mandy: i’ll look around for the disks
Mandy: which one?
Mickey: What do we have?
Mandy: uhhh star wars is the one i’m sure of
Mandy: maybe lord of the rings i don’t know
Mickey: Take every one we’ll choose
Mandy: k
Mandy: bring me your phone i’ll hide it in my anti-boys place
Mickey: Don’t even tell me where this shit is
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[Group chat “Uhh”]
[Ian has returned into the group chat]
Ian: I’m sorry
Ian: Mickey, and to you specifically
Ian: Lip told me about how you both felt, so uh yeah…
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[Group chat “Uhh”]
Ian: You here?
Ian: I’m sorry
Ian: Things just didn’t go well
Ian: Goodnight
Ian: Good morning, I think…
Ian: I know Mick doesn’t like me saying good morning when going to sleep but it’s almost 8am, so yeah
[Direct messages]
Mandy: hey
Ian: Hey
Mandy: mick is sleeping now i think… we both were kinda trying to calm him down and finished just now
Ian: I’m even afraid to ask at this point
Mandy: i will tell you like how everything went but it’s just the hard truth so all of it isn’t be your fault
Mandy: ok?
Ian: Okay…
Mandy: well this apology he sent you? we kinda composed it together bc he doesn’t really know how to put his feelings into words properly and he also rarely apologizes like that or even at all
Mandy: and before that he was crying like i could literally hear him sobbing and it was the first time i’ve heard it since like 2004
Mandy: and he also threw up and had a migraine and that doesn’t look like him at all… and i guess that’s because he wasn’t trying to drink it away and wasn’t picking up his guitar
Ian: He plays a guitar?
Mandy: no he doesn’t
Mandy: he had stolen it who knows when and just picks it up and puts some music on and pretends he is the one playing it
Mandy: i don’t know why it fucked up him so much… maybe that was not the anniversary he was expecting
Ian: Anniversary?
Mandy: it’s been like half a year already ian
Mandy: not really an anniversary but still a cool date
Ian: Fuck… Now I feel even shittier
Ian: How’s he doing now?
Mandy: as i’ve said he is probably sleeping now
Mandy: we were playing games all night and he was laughing and smiling and promising to kick my ass lol
Mandy: come over
Mandy: he’d be happy
Ian: I think he would probably kick me out the second he sees me
Mandy: no
Mandy: he wants to see you asap
Ian: Text when he wakes up
Mandy: no
Mandy: come over now
Mandy: i’ll wake him up
Ian: Are you sure? He probably needs to rest…
Mandy: just a surprise for him
Mandy: he had a rough week with running around terry in prison and going back and forth to evanston bc the students make good clients and mick needs money of his own and then this shit happened
Ian: Fuck, I didn’t know that… He didn’t tell me. He was just exhausted most of the time and was saying he was tired, but sex kinda helped him
Ian: I didn’t want to push him, because I know how that feels
Ian: Fuck…
Ian: I’m gonna take a shower, grab a toast and head out to you
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[Group chat “Uhh”]
Mandy: SHUT THE FUCK UP
Mandy: I CAN HEAR YOU AND IM TRYING TO FUCKING SLEEP WHILE YOU KEEP FUCKING F U C K I N G
Ian: Sorryyyyyyyy, I’ll shut him up :)
Ian: That’s better?
Mandy: yep thanks
Mandy: now this shame is gonna stay forever in this gc
Mandy: ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS