II. My apologies
March 14, 2025 at 5:33 AM
I’m sorry. I’m actually sorry
For feeling so deeply sometimes.
I’m sorry for being responsible
For thinking of you for few times
Every hour. My deepest apologies
For the desire to hear your laugh,
For considering you something special
And for bothering you with my muff.
And, of course, forgive me for saying
That you hurt me. It’s not your mistake.
I would love to say that all feelings
That I had for you just a fake
But, unfortunately, I’m terrible lier
Especially, when I’m trying my best
To not show that I actually value.
For me it’s kind of protest
For this world — I’m always so honest.
And I’m sorry I asked you the same,
Asked to show if you actually need me….
Whatever, none of this is your blame.
Just please, I’ll ask for the last time —
I promise, all feelings I’ll snatch, —
Forgive me for this stupid poem
And for being for you so attached.