my last wishes

– Hello everyone My name is Han Hyungjun and... I have one month left to live.       The phrase sounded loud and clear in the dark room, echoing off the walls. Hyungjun wiped away the tears that appeared on his eyes, reddened from recent hysteria, and tried to smile broadly. — You may ask what happened to me and where I've already got into. An hour ago, my mother received the results of my recent examination. You know, I realized from them that I have leukemia in the last stage. To be honest, I didn't really delve into any words except those that informed me of my situation. But Mom has probably read them a hundred times already.       Hyungjun crumpled the plaid in his hands, bit his lips, blinked often, just to keep from crying again. His nose burned unpleasantly, and there was an impenetrable lump in throat. Faint sounds of his mother crying could be heard from the next room, which made Hyungjun feel bad. It was as if he had already died, and he was being sincerely mourned. — And I realized that this month I want to do everything that I was always putting off for later. And I will also share it all here, so if you want to see how you can enjoy life when you know that the end is near, stay with me. Xoxo.       Hyungjun finished the video, clicked "publish" and turned off the phone. He involuntarily sobbed and hid his face in his hands. He didn't want to cry again, he didn't want to feel sorry for himself, but it couldn't be any other way. It got cold, even a warm hoodie didn't help. Junhan reached out to the heater and turned it on. The room was filled with artificial heat, which the guy did not need. Guttural sounds came out of his throat, similar to the torments of sinners in the Underworld. — Why... why me?! – He shouted in a strangled voice and slammed his fists on the mattress. It made a sharp sound of springs and stopped. — Why me? What is my fault?       There were three knocks on the door of the room. The knock echoed through the room like the ringing of a bell, silencing Hyunjun. He got out of bed and, trying to calm down, went to the door. — Jun-i, it's me, – his mother's voice came from the other side of the door. — May I come in?       Hyungjun opened the door to let her in. Minji walked over to the bed and sat on it, wiping her eyes with two fingers. Hyungjun sat down next to her, involuntarily sobbed and swallowed. — How are you? – she asked, casually glancing at Han. He shrugged, trying to look as carefree as possible. – It's fine, as you can see, – Hyungjun said calmly and looked away at the wall with the Day6 posters. He recalled the moment when he tried to buy tickets to their concert, but they were quickly dismantled. — Did you cry? – Minji asked. Hyungjun choked inwardly. Why ask if everything is obvious? – No, I was picking flowers,— he replied rudely. — I had two hysterias in a row and you, being in the next room, didn't hear it? Seriously? — What are you going to do? Will you just sit there, or will you start doing what you've always been putting off? — ignoring her son's rudeness, the woman asked. – And you didn't hear that? I was talking all over the room about my plans, and, again, you, being in the next room, didn't hear it? – Hyungjun began to lose his temper a little.       There was a short minute of silence. It filled the room, pressing on ears. Junhan mechanically began to pull the tail of his big soft dolphin Wonpil, staring at the carpet. — Maybe you want to tell me something? – Minji suddenly asked. Hyungjun looked up sharply at her and raised an eyebrow questioningly. — Tell you what? – he asked, tossing Wonpil's tail aside. – Something you've been hiding from me. I know there's something like that, – Minji said. — What do you expect me to say? – Han asked quietly. — I don't understand, do you think I'm going to tell you something just because I have a month left to live? So you're using this? – I'm not... come back! – Hyungjun got out of bed and walked over to the table. He took the headphones from the shelf and turned on the music on his phone, put them on and left the room. When he opened messenger, he pressed on chat with Seungmin and wrote there.

jun without jun

i'm going to your house.

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