«A Court of Thorn and Roses». Imagines & One Shots

Being a mate of Eris Vanserra: • All his life, Eris was sure that he was the kind of person who didn't have a soul mate. And then he crossed paths with you at one of the events in the Night Court. You were one of the friends of Feyre, the High Lady of the Night Court, and you lived in Velaris. • Eris has not confirmed the bond between the two of you for a long time. • You didn't know that you two are soul mates. • Eris carefully hid his secrets from everyone. The bond between you was one of those secrets. • One day you accidentally crossed eyes and you felt something in your chest rushing to him. That surprised you, since soul mates weren't very common in Prythian. You could count on your fingers how many paired couples you knew personally. • You didn't know how to approach him. And whether you or he needed it at all. • Eris tried to push you away. But it was difficult for him. You were stubborn as hell. It both infuriated and attracted him, because he was the same way. • When you finally gave your potential relationship a chance, Eris didn't know how to behave. He was like a piece of ice from the freezer. You didn't try to fix it intentionally, but you showed him your love in various ways, with gestures, words, actions, and patience, in the hope that it might help him open up. And it helped. • Eris never shows his feelings in public. And you understand, because he was raised so that he would never show a single weakness to anyone. You never insist on it. • But when you're alone, he drops all the masks. It took a lot of time and a lot of patience, but in the end it paid off in full. • When you first saw his scars, it happened completely by accident. He definitely wasn't going to show them to you. And there were a lot of them. Scars from whips, whips, rods, belts, burns, nails… How hard did someone have to cling to leave the nail scars?... • And Eris was so shocked when, instead of asking about it, you silently kissed his shoulder. You didn't ask, you didn't insist that he tell you about them, you just gave him time. And he was so grateful. • When he first told you what his father was doing to him, what he was putting him through, you were furious. He had to calm you down because you were ready to go to the Autumn Court or straight to the Forest House and kill his father with your bare hands. • Beron didn't know about you, because if he did, you would be Eris' greatest weakness. And that's exactly what the High Lord would be happy to use. • That's why you lived in the Night Court so Beron wouldn't know about your relationship with Eris. • Eris kept the bond between you closed. He didn't want you to worry about him when he was hurt or to feel his pain and feel sorry for him or feel guilty and didn't want to risk your safety. He is well aware of what his father and his brothers are capable of. • You never close your bond completely, leaving a loophole in your mind for him if he needs you. • Eris told you that you're his mate only to Lucien. Lucien couldn't keep it to himself and told Feyre... and so the whole Inner Circle found out about this fact, because she couldn't hide it from her mate. It was... terrible. Everyone was shouting at each other and interrupting, and you just sat there like a piece of furniture, no one even listened to you. • When Eris told Lucien the truth, he was only trying to protect you. But at first it only created more problems before it got better. • Rhysand and Feyre ended up being the most adequate about this situation. You were a resident of Velaris, so they protected you anyway, even without a Eris’s request. • You didn't pay attention to the looks that Mor or Azriel and Cassian gave you. You were more annoyed that they all started whispering to each other, and when you entered the room, they abruptly fell silent. You felt like a leper. • But Rhys and Feyre understood why you both hid it, because Rhysand did the same thing himself. Therefore, the High Lord and the High Lady of the Night Court did everything to smooth over this moment. It was difficult for them, but they still managed to achieve some success in this. • You only saw Eris from afar during his brief visits to the Night Court with his father, or when he came several times, unbeknownst to Beron and his brothers, to discuss something with the Inner Circle. • When Eris came without his father, he tried to find at least a few minutes to spend with you before returning to the Autumn Court. • You helped him with bandaging his wounds. He usually doesn't show them to anyone, but when he got you, he opened up and... just gave up. You don't ask about them, Eris tells you if he wants to. And a huge part of his wounds were inflicted by his father's hands, from the battles he participated in, he only had a few scars. The number of scars on his body is only growing, and all you have to do is watch and help him. • Eris is always focused and calculating. He tries not to make a single mistake, because it can cost him a lot and he knows it perfectly well. He's been in court politics for so long that he no longer remembers what it's like to just trust someone without expecting a stab in the back, because the court politics of the Autumn Court is a real snake's den. And he's at the epicenter of it. • You learned the story of his mother and Helion, first from the words of the Lady of the Autumn Court herself, and then from the words of Eris. He insisted on it himself so that you would understand how his father treats his mother and how women in the Autumn Court are treated in general. • He hopes to introduce you to his mother for real one day. You met several times at the meeting of the High Lords, but she was silent all the time and was her husband's shadow. Despite the fact that most of the time she acts like a weak-willed doll that can be controlled and controlled by his father, she really loves Eris and her other children. Eris really wants both of his beloved women to meet each other without any threatening presence. • Eris adores his mother. And when you get to know her–really, really get to know her-you realize that she is a loving and caring mother, as much as her position in this family allows. She does not interfere with Beron's "parenting methods" because he has clearly indicated to her where her place is and he does not allow her to interfere in any way or there will be consequences for her and for their sons. But she helps her children as much as she can without consequences for them and for herself. • Eris is a fierce defender. He doesn't let you be anywhere near the Autumn Court while his father is still reigning there and alive. He doesn't want to go through the same thing as Lucien. But when you ask him about Jesminda, Lucien's mate, he doesn't tell you what's going on for a long time. Instead, he repeats everything that others think, including Lucien, that Eris betrayed this girl to his father, that he did nothing to prevent what happened. And then, for the first time in centuries, he tells the truth. About how when he refused to participate in the torture and death of Jesminda, his father locked him up and tortured him. That it was the first and last, the only thing he had ever denied his father. • You keep letting his hair down from the tight ponytail he always wears on his head. You like to run your fingers through his hair while his head is in your lap. Eris is usually humming to himself at this time, completely relaxing and trusting you. It's so rare for him to completely relax and trust. • You never thought that a man like Eris, who seemed arrogant, cruel, and self-satisfied, could be so gentle and gentle with you. • The hounds of Eris adore you. They lie at your feet or on your lap, offering their heads or bellies to be scratched. For Eris, his dogs are like his own children, he raised and taught each of them everything on his own, so he takes great care of them, appreciates and protects them. Besides, smoky hounds are rare for Prythian, and he has as many as twelve dogs of this breed. • He wants to become a High Lord so badly that he can change the laws of the Autumn Court for the better. But he tries to be patient and think through every step, because haste is more likely to lead to his death than help. • When he becomes the High Lord, he will no longer be able to hide the bond between you and also make you the High Lady, if that's what you want, of course. • You really want to finally feel your bond to the fullest. Everyone talks about it as some kind of miracle, magic, and you want to feel it for yourself. • You support Eris no matter what, and he does the same for you in return. • When Beron's overthrow finally takes place, you are in the ranks of the Night Court, away from Beron, so that he cannot use you against Eris in any way. • The Lady of the Autumn Court is as far away from Beron as the rest of his sons, except for Eris, who were sent away by Eris himself. Eris himself is obviously in the thick of things. • When the High Lord Beron's power passes to the High Lord Eris, everything goes quiet for a few moments. • And with his very first decree, Eris makes an alliance with the Night Court. • His coronation takes place a few weeks later. And you can see how proud and happy his mother is, who is there with Helion, who does not let her out of his arms. She glows and shines with such infectious happiness that it was impossible not to smile looking at her. And Helion looks at her with such adoration. • You catch Eris's eye and smile at him, wide and sincere. And then... you feel bond. And that means everything. He's safe from his abusive father. He's the High Lord now. And he had just confirmed the bond between the two of you, it was safer now than when Beron was alive. • Eris begins by changing the wildest laws and traditions of the Autumn Court. • You get married a few months after his coronation, and you become the High Lady of the Autumn Court. • You are always together in the wilds of court politics and intrigue, and Eris is so grateful to you for that. Of course, he could have done it himself, but with more difficulty. • Managing the Court, especially in the state in which Beron left it, is still a challenge. But he has something his father didn't have – love and support, not fear and submission. • Eris is afraid to even think about having a child with you, because he is very afraid of becoming like his father or forcing his children to go through the same things that he went through. But you're always there to support him and remind him that he's not his father and never will be. • Therefore, when you get pregnant, you know for sure that this child is desirable and will be so loved by both of you. • Eris literally goes crazy when he hears the news. He becomes more protective and possessive, trying to keep you in his field of vision all the time or to know where you are all the time. He's not jealous because he feels you and trusts you. He is so afraid that this joy, this happiness is temporary and may be taken away from him. • But you're already there for him, comforting him and calming his fears, even if they seem silly and far-fetched. You understand perfectly well why he reacts the way he does, and you don't blame him for anything. • You talk a lot about Beron after his death. Eris reveals new details about his growing up to you, and you listen without interrupting, giving him a strong shoulder to lean on and acting as a friend with whom you can talk about everything in the world. However, when Eris reveals to you more and more new sides and details of his father's cruelty, which he went through, you want to resurrect Beron and kill him yourself, with the same cruelty, so that he would feel it for himself. • But you know that even if it were possible, you wouldn't do it because Eris fought so hard against that asshole his whole life and finally defeated him, not so that you would ruin it all because you failed to kill him yourself. • Eris hugs you from behind, putting his hands on your stomach, and nuzzles your neck, covering it with kisses. If someone had told you at the very beginning of your acquaintance that he would behave like this, you would have laughed in his face. But here you are. And you wouldn't want anything else. • Eris's hounds are also acting strangely during your pregnancy. They all become overprotective, as if Eris ordered them to, but you know that wasn't the case. You think they're just feeling for the child and protecting you both as mate and heir to Eris, respectively. • You're afraid of becoming too clingy to Eris and getting bored with him, but it looks like he's just as clingy himself. He needs to hold you, know where you are and what's wrong with you, so that if necessary he can come to your aid or protect you. • Lucien comes to visit you quite often now. He is a welcome guest in both the Autumn and the Day Courts. • However, so did Helion, along with her mother Eris, who has now become the High Lady of the Day Court. • When the newly minted the High Lady of the Day Court finally tells Helion and Lucien the truth about Lucien's birth, they are both stunned. But many things are becoming clear to Lucien now, and Helion only regrets that he did not receive confirmation of this sooner. But they both understand why she hid it. You and Eris are present during this conversation and... damn your hormones, you cry all the time. Eris hugs you from behind, gently stroking your shoulders, trying to comfort you. • Lucien also talked to Eris... and found out that he knew about it from the very beginning. It was only at that moment that a lot of his brother's behavior suddenly became clear to Lucien. Why was Eris so attached to him, while several other brothers on the contrary hated him? Their relationship gets better, especially after Eris tells Lucien the same things he told you about Jesminda. All the misunderstandings and resentments between them disappear. • You wonder what your child will be like, which one of you he will be more like. But you know that you'll have to wait for the baby to be born to find out for sure. • On the one hand, Eris is afraid of the birth of your child, but on the other hand, he can't wait for him to pick up the baby. • You're sure he's going to be a wonderful father. And this confidence helps him too. You know that you will be by his side every step of the way, just like every time before. • You perform your duties as the High Lady for as long as you can for health reasons. Eris insists that you take more care of yourself and the child, and that he can handle it on his own. You know that, but still he may need your help, so you help him in any way you can. • Eris just wants to drag you into your chambers and keep you safe there, protecting you, all pregnant, soft and glow with happiness. • Every time he comes back to your bedroom, mostly late at night, he hugs you, burying himself in your spine and closing his eyes. • For the first time in his life, he feels really happy at such moments, because he has you and will soon have a child. And that's something his father can never take away from him. • Your love is... quiet but strong. You don't have to shout about your feelings to the whole world, it's already visible to those who want to see it. Your bond is strong and only getting stronger every day, because you trust each other in everything and there are no secrets between you. • He absolutely adores you. Yes, there are arguments and quarrels between you (and who doesn't have them?), but you love each other and solve it together. You listen and hear each other. • Some time later, Eris's mother shocks you with the news that she and Helion will soon have a baby. You and Eris just exchange glances, and he pulls you closer, closing his eyes and sighing. You were happy. It all seemed right. Now everything seemed right. • Your baby is growing up to be a happy child, despite Eris' concerns. Because he has you two. Because you love him and each other. • The old scars still hurt, but Eris looks to the future with his head held high. You and your child will definitely be with him and no one will take you anywhere. And this quiet happiness makes both him and you move on, try, work for the good of your Court and your own.