Do you loves me?

I've always acted like a little kid. And now I'm tearing the petals of a daisy to see if she loves me. -«Loves.. Not loves.. Loves.. Not loves..»-these are the words that I said. I want to know about her feelings about me. I pulled out every daisy petal like that. Like a little kid.. I remember the first time we met.. It was also a playground where I walked, had fun and jumped. And my mom was looking at me from the bench. And then I saw a girl with blonde hair, blue eyes and a pink dress. (Not Barbie =_) She was also on and walking with her father around the playground. We were 5 years old. She offered to be friends with me, to which I agreed. We were best friends, and we were in the same class. However, I'm already 16 years old, and I'm still acting like a little kid, hoping that she loves me.. But.. What if it doesn't? After all, in fact, she fell in love with that guy from school. He was quite handsome for many of our school. But I don't want to think that because of him I won't be able to get mutual love and stuff. -«Loves.. Not loves.. Loves.. Not loves..»-I repeated these words to the end But why was the last petal here? This flower was Not loves. Does she not love me?