I'm Not A Freak
July 3, 2024 at 8:00 AM
Notes:
"I'm Not A Freak" is the theme of one of the characters from the books from the "Stronger Together" series. If you read my previous post, you may remember that I promised to publish the song and tell you some information about my new book 5 from the "Stronger Together" series. And I did it. I will not mention the title of it before the official announcement of the book release. But if you want to know it, look for some Easter eggs in the video of my new song. Trust me, doing this would be much easier for you than you think. This is, so to speak, the exclusive information for regular visitors to my YouTube channel. And if you listen to the song "I'm Not A Freak", you will find the answer to this question. And after this, I will tell you nothing more before a certain moment. I have some soundtracks for my new book, but I will publish them after the official announcement and the release of Chapter 1.
And I hope you're gonna love "I'm Not A Freak", too. Maybe, you will recognize yourself or some of your close people in one of the songs written by me. Maybe, one of the songs is going to mean something to you. Anyway, I will continue to work on this rubric. And I will be doing this until I finish writing the fifth book, or until all the songs written by me are published. So, I will be impatiently waiting for you next week on my accounts because I will probably publish one of my favorite songs at the moment.
Lyrics Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O_3G2JT1MkQ
[Verse]
People said I was ugly, they called me a weirdo
Makin’ me wish to be invisible, wish to be a shadow
They wanted to break me and ruin my biggest dreams
There was nobody to care, nobody to hear my scream
I was freaking lonely, my little world was crashing down
Holdin’ me in the box so I couldn’t find a way out
[Pre-Chorus]
It’s okay I don’t fit any kind of trends
I don’t care you don’t like my style
I ain’t gonna change and pretend
I will raise my head and put on a smile
[Chorus]
'Cause I’m not a freak
I won’t let you call me weak
I’m much stronger than before
No longer feel like something small
It’s never a shame to be unique
To piss off someone to call you a freak
[Post-Chorus]
I’m not a freak
I’m not a freak
I’m not a freak
[Verse 2]
People called me names, makin’ me an outcast
Rejoicin’ over my failures, over all the tears I cried
Dreamed of my death and said I’d always be nothing
But I rose from the ground with all the tests I passed
With the scars on my hands, with the pain I kept inside
Gonna kick everyone’s asses, gonna act like I’m a king
[Pre-Chorus]
I’m sick of drowning in this pool
I’m done with all these rules
I ain’t gonna change and pretend
I won’t let you win and watch me dead
[Chorus]
'Cause I’m not a freak
I won’t let you call me weak
I’m much stronger than before
No longer feel like something small
It’s never a shame to be unique
To piss off someone to call you a freak
[Post-Chorus]
I’m not a freak
I’m not a freak
I’m not a freak
[Breakdown]
It’s not okay I can’t live without pain
It’s not okay I can’t stop harming myself
I can’t breathe, I wanna break these chains
Wanna run away from this freaking prison
I crave to live, I crave to cling to the reason
To breathe
[Pre-Chorus]
I ain’t dead, I’m alive (I ain’t a freak)
I ain’t dead, I’m alive (I ain’t a freak)
No, you’ll never watch me die
You’ll see how high I can fly
[Chorus]
'Cause I’m not a freak
I won’t let you call me weak
I’m much stronger than before
No longer feel like something small
It’s never a shame to be unique
(People said I was ugly)
To piss off someone to call you a freak
(They called me a weirdo)
[Post-Chorus]
I’m not a freak
I’m not a freak
(People said I was ugly)
(They called me a weirdo)
I'm not a freak
[Outro]
No, I’m not a freak
(I’m not a freak)
You won’t make me weak
My star will shine bright
You will see it someday at night
(I’m not a freak, I’m not a freak)
Notes:
And yeah, let me tell you something about the song, "I'm Not A Freak". To be clear, about the character, to whom this song is dedicated. About the character, who, as I said before, is going to be the lead character of the new book. His name is Peter. Even though he had to run into a lot of mockeries from some cruel people, among whom he, sadly, ended up, this man seems to be a quiet, harmless, and innocent angel, who needs protection from someone to be strong. But in reality, he is able to raise his voice and stand up for himself and his close people. Yes, he is by far not cowardly, he is determined enough, and he is very purposeful. But this is some kind of protective reaction.
The indifference of his mother, bullying from people of his age, a lack of friends, absolute loneliness, and his inability to complain to someone and get support from them gave him strong psychological trauma and a lot of scars on his heart. And he's been trying so hard to get through all of that for many, many years. Though, it's not happening very well. Especially when he is alone. Especially when he prefers to keep everything inside and lets people think something is not right with him. Nevertheless, all these tests didn't turn his heart into some kind of stone, and this character didn't let himself stand on the dark side and remained a kind, loyal, and careful person. So, in order to learn the full story of Peter, I advise you to read my books from the "Stronger Together" series.