A Better Imp

It has been a week after the terrible date in Ozzie's. But everything hurt still. Perhaps it is just him, but seriously though. Blitzo questioned his life, which to him has always been difficult. From birth to this point, he always struggled to do something. First he tries to get his bastard of a father approval by being an clown. But that goes perfectly, especially with far more talaneted and better Fizzarolli. It's not that he didn't practice or anything. Blitzo might be one of the most hard-working imps there is. Then an accident changes Blitzo life trajectery for the worse. Note: Blitzo didn't cause fire, but he was blamed for it, all the same. He tried to come clean, but no one bothered to listen, even his friend Fizzarolli, also that still a mystery. Blitzo didn't have enough corage to face his friends, due to his overwhelming guilt and hate. There are a lot of things and mistakes, Blitzo hates himself for. Being a bad father and role model for his Loonie. His adoptive daughter, despite what one may believe, Blitzo is a good dad, but he believed otherwise. Mostly because of his daughter behavior, but that is Hell. However Blitzo wanted her to be much better and happier, but he failed at even that. It's not the only thing. His overall personality is a mask, Blitzo made to hide his feelings and emotions. He is very depressed and self-loathing moron, who thinks that he is stupid and can't make things right. Even though he is good at business, both his work and money raising. Even if he is somewhat overaddicted to horses, which he tries to fix or make it less effecting. Moreover his constant glittering of Moxxie is for his own confidence, but he knows Moxxie is far better than himself. He stalks M&M to learn about healthy relationship as he never saw one and also to protect them somewhat. He ruined so many things, his sister life as she got washed. His family, his company, his emploeyes, who are his family, his adoptive daugher and even kinda lover Stolas. Basically everything. Blitzo just knows he can't love nor being loved by anyone, but that very far from the truth, he just can't see it. In his apartment(a way better one than in canon). Blitzo is awake with same shit. But he is really tired of being sorry and hating on himself. But he wonders. How can he improve and become better? How? Blitzo decided to take action cause he might lose everything for real, if he keeps shit up. Studying and researched was and will never be Blitzo's favorite thing of doing, but if he is to improve than he needs all knowledge, he can get. He reads about phylosophy a lot. A main objective is to break his mask and learn how to communicate. One of the most important skills there is. Blitzo reads about how to not hate himself and self-forgiveness cause it is most difficult to forgive oneself than other to forgive you. There are a lot of things Blitzo cannot forgive himself for, but he will try his hardest for the sake of it and keep positive emotions and thought not negative ones. Blitzo thoughts that he might need help from someone else too. He knows that no one will be able to really make him better, but a piece of advice is always welcomed. Blitzo glances around to spot something or someone. But he finds no one. Loona likely has gone to one of parties or something. Blitzo wondered where his Loonie is, but decided to not worry too much. He is still overprotective, he will try to less this overprotectiveness, but this will be hard as he loved his Loonie like his real daughter that he never had. Blitzo also thought about Stolas and his date, despite it being ruined, he liked it being with Stolas, even if he embarassed the Prince out there. But honestly fuck opinions. Blitzo knows that Stolas loves him and he can admit to himself he does too. He needs to learn more about this as well on his journey of self-improvement. A phone started to ring inside of Blitzo's hand. He answers the call as he sees that it his Loonie. "Yes Loonie, what is it?" Blitzo asks gently. On other side Loona is a little surprised by his voice, but doesn't really question it. She decided to not waste time and jumb the grit. "Uh, dad can you pick me up. I am at(Adress)" She requestes. Blitzo says alright and then heads for his van. He then drives to Gluttony Ring, likely a party that Queen Bee herself throws. He arrives quickly as his daughter stands outside alone. Blitzo sees this and becomes sadden. He would like for his Loonie to have friends, also he remebered that she did befriend Octavia back at that accident with DHORKS. " Hey Loonie, how are you?" Blitzo decided to be casual. "I can be better. This party is cool and all, but I am kinda alone, even if Vortex and Beelzebub are cool with me" She stated with a bit of a blush. Blitzo sees this and decided to tease his daughter a bit. "Oh I see someone inherited her father's taste. You aim for an actual Sin though a major improvement from your old man and also an Hellhound boyfriend too doesn't sound so bad" Blitzo says very slippery as a snail. Loona becomes atomic red from it as she stares at her dad and smiles. She never experienced this. Well Blitzo is normally embrassing, but not on purpose, but now he is. "Stop teasing me and let's get going" Loona said with smile. Blitzo just laught and says that she liked it nonetheless, but his daugheter won't admit as much. Their drive is quite boring and not long. Now finally in their apartment. Blitzo decided to go to sleep as it is already a night time. He will go to Stolas to finally finalize things between him and Blitzo. Whatever it will be Blitzo will take it. But secretly Blitzo wanted to become Stolas lover and maybe husband in future. "So what's up, you seems to be far happier and better today. What gives?" Loona stated with curiosity in her voice. Blitzo signed, but answered nonetheless. He really didn't have anything to hide from his daughter. "I just thought that feeling like a shit and hating on myself won't fix anything, so I decided to become better and try really hard to fix all my mistakes. That won't be easy, but I am really stubborn" Blitzo admits. Loona just gapes, she just hugged him. She smiled at him, while Blitzo is just surprised "I think you can do that, dad of all person in Hell. I do believe you are an amazing and caring person, you just hide yourself from all the pain in that mask, am I right?" She said. Blitzo confirmed it. Both had gone to sleep after that.

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After a good night, Blitzo has woken up refreshed and ready for more. He still remembered that he needed to go to Stolas to talk things out. Also he needs to do other things. While at Stolas' Palace. Screams are heard. Stella arranged wife of Stolas is once again screaming at her husband, also more like a slave. Stolas tries to defuse situation, but that seems to enlarge Stella's rage. His feeble attitude really isn't helping matters. What is worse is that his daughter, Octavia is listening to this everyday and is really tired of it. Almost to the point of running away, but has still no done that out of love to her dad. "Stolas you really are worthless. You need to decide, what you want and real soon cause, I am growing tired of your little facet with that low life" She stated and left to who knows where. Stolas breathes a sign of relief, but still berrates himself for weak behavior, but can't help himself. Just then his daughter steps out of her door. Stolas smiles at his little Starfire, the one of only things really shining in his life. She steps to him. "Hello my little Starfire. Is something the matter?" Stolas asks his daughter with love in his voice. She just signs and then speaks. "It just that. This is becoming tiresome dad. This really needs to stop. Please you need to decide, what really matters" She then runs with tears dropping from his eyes. Stolas is stunned. He wondered, what she meant by that. Perhaps he needs to finally talks things out with his beloved Blitzo and also divorce Stella. To be continued...