Pain, despair and tears.
February 7, 2024 at 3:45 AM
Seungmin is upset when he wakes up and finds only a piece of paper with a good morning wish and strawberries in a basket on the coffee table, but not Hyeongjun himself. This really upsets him, and then, realizing what he looks like now, he quickly blushes and hurries to put on all the clothes he discarded at night. It would also be worth cleaning up, because Minho and Felix wanted to come to him. It just dawned on the omega that it was no longer morning at all, but evening was already approaching. Did he really sleep for half a day? And then he remembers Hyeongjun, his hands, and how good he felt with him, it’s not surprising that he slept for so long, the desired alpha took all his strength.
Seungmin’s shoulder aches painfully, he doesn’t pay attention to it at first, chalking it up to the fact that he apparently had a rest on his arm or that last night was making itself felt. But soon, when he got out of the shower and looked around himself from the side, he noticed a couple of points on his shoulder, just above the collarbone, and feeling with his fingers the place that hurt, it dawned on him.
Mark.
He pulled the hem of his robe lower, bringing his reflection closer, examining his shoulder. He’s definitely not imagining it. At the same time, an eerie feeling of the unknown hits his head, but so does the euphoria of love, the mark left reminds him of their night with Hyeongjun. The mark controls the mind, makes you not only miss the alpha, but also the smell hits your nose like after rain. Hyeongjun even smelled special, not like the others; his smell had notes of metal, grass, which seemed to be torn out of the ground. A strange aroma that may seem like that to someone, but for Seungmin it turned out to be somehow special and enchanting. Now he understands even more why he has so little strength, the mark seemed to take away his energy, as if if the alpha is not around, then you will not have the strength to exist without him.
If it weren’t for the doorbell, Seungmin would have stood for a long time with a satisfied face, remembering the alpha. He buttoned his robe, straightened his hair and ran to open the door, trying to get all thoughts out of his head along the way so as not to give Minho food for teasing.
— Why are you still in a robe? — the elder frowns, pushing into the apartment, holding a couple of bottles of wine in his hands.
— I have just woke up! — Seungmin fakes a yawn.
— This means it’s only morning for you! By the way, our working day is already over! It’s good that there’s no university yet, otherwise they’d have to drag you there by the scruff of the neck? Why are we sleeping until the evening? — Minho puts on a grin, opening the door of the kitchen drawer, where he knew exactly where the glasses were in this apartment.
Seungmin wants to hit himself on the head, he couldn’t lie about something, sometimes it seems like you can’t hide anything from Minho.
Felix hugs Oh, shaking his head, saying, don’t pay attention.
— I hope you’re not sick? — Felix looks at Seungmin questioningly.
— No! — he shakes his head, blushing from the memories of the night again. — I’m healthy, honestly!
Minho immediately strains his hearing, suspecting something and squinting, grinning, immediately joking:
— You react like you have a lover hiding in your closet. Are you cheating on us, Seungminie? — Felix smiles awkwardly, holding back his laughter and squeezing the younger one in his arms in order to calm him down.
— Let’s drink? — younger Lee suggests something that will distract both of them from the earlier topic.
— Exactly! Exactly! Let’s go to the hall! — the older omega hurries into the room to take his favorite sofa and laughs sarcastically. — Shall we watch a movie? Although I would watch porn.
Felix hugs Oh by the waist, pulling him into the hall and laughing a little at Minho’s jokes, pulls him to sit on the sofa, but he resists, causing bewilderment in both.
— What’s happened? Does your butt hurt after a hot night? — Lee younger laughs contentedly, not suspecting that he hit the nail on the head, of course Seungmin’s ass didn’t hurt, but it was a hot night.
The younger one cannot stop blushing from the flashbacks of the night on this very sofa; it even seems to him that this sofa is now saturated with the smell of an alpha.
It becomes a little scary when Minho frowns a little and suddenly asks a logical question, and so seriously:
— Is it just me or has your scent changed a little?
— A? — Now Oh doesn’t know exactly how to get out of it or what to come up with that’s normal, and what’s also frightening is that Felix also became more serious at that moment, — Did you have too much to drink with Han Jisung yesterday or something? Your smell is also like nothing before.
— Why are you being so insolent, little one? Got something to hide? — Minho smiles and pours wine into glasses. — Do you happen to have any cheese there?
— Yes. I will bring it now. — Seungmin practically flies to the kitchen and very slowly returns to his friends.
— Are we really allowed to sit on this sofa? I think there’s a lot of evidence of hot nights on it. — Lee older sarcastically sipped his glass of wine, sipping a little. — Now I understand why you slept for so long today. Does your butt hurt?
— Hyungnim! — Oh blushes, hiding his embarrassed face, he is ashamed especially in front of Felix, because it’s difficult to lie to friends and you don’t want to.
— How soon can I become an uncle? — Minho still doesn’t finish his jokes, watching the younger one. — Still, the smell has changed a little.
— Hyeongjun came yesterday… — Seungmin can’t stand the curious glances of his friends and gives in under their pressure, wrapping himself tighter in his robe.
— Wow! — Lee older exhales loudly and admiringly, putting down his glass of wine. — And you decided to give him your sweet virginity? How generous and sweet. Hm? — Minho looks around the room, — Give yourself to him for a crust of strawberry? Give it here so your payment won’t go to waste. — He grins even more, pointing to the basket of berries that was huddled on the chest of drawers, tapping the glass of wine. Seungmin completely forgot about her, all his thoughts were occupied with something else.
Felix feels a little awkward in the company of these two, but he is amused by how they make fun of each other; they do not meet often, and this was already an integral part of their communication. He puts his face in his hands, smiling at the two omegas, muttering under his breath:
— We’ll have to find an alpha for ourselves too, otherwise it’s becoming unbearable with you!
Seungmin hands the basket to Minho, who bursts out laughing:
— Damn, this is really three kilograms and really generous!
Felix chuckles animatedly and hugs Minho.
— Tell us how it was, Min?
— How it was? It was amazing… — Oh exhales loudly, closing his eyes for a moment and feeling a pull in the pit of his stomach from the memories. Suddenly the memory of the mark on his shoulder plays in his head and the younger bites his lip, feeling Han’s scent again. — Minho-hyungnim was right about the pleasure… but that doesn’t mean anything. Will you stay the night?
— No, no. First, let your sofa air out after your hot games, and then we will stay the night. Yes, Felix? — Lee older is clearly mocking, playing along with his eyebrows and sipping his wine again. Now Seungmin remembers his glass and decides to finally try it. The eldest never brings bad wine, but Felix did not drink much and therefore remained the most sober among the three.
When the wine burns Oh’s throat, and his eyes become a little cloudy and his mood seems to change to more cheerful than embarrassed. The words come out on their own; what comes to mind is what ends up on the tongue.
— Hyeongjun… he was also a virgin by the way! But he fucked me so well… — the younger one closes his eyes, realizing that he said too much, but he couldn’t and still can’t stop. The memories of the hot night will never leave his head, especially since Felix and Minho are so keenly interested in it.
— I propose a toast to the loss of virginity of these two kids? — Minho giggles, they clink their glasses, — I warned you not to make a face until you try!
— It was too perfect and wonderful! — Seungmin is completely intoxicated by the missing alpha.
— I want to see this handsome guy soon! — Felix pours the remaining wine into glasses, — So it wasn’t just for one night?
— I don’t know, — Seungmin sighs sadly, — When I woke up he was no longer there! I don’t even know what to think about this now… — the omega rubs the place where the mark was pulsating, still not knowing whether to mention it or not. He still didn’t fully understand whether Hyeongjun put this mark because he felt something for him or if it wasn’t all serious for him. And these thoughts scared him. Although the realization also ran through my head that they had not seen each other for just a day and it is natural that Han most likely just had his own affairs and work. Who the alpha actually worked for Oh was an interesting secret, which he would definitely ask Hyeongjun himself when they met.
— If he leaves you too, like that idiot Kim Jungsu, — Minho’s facial expression changes, pulling on a sly grin, — I’ll tell Han Jisung, he has some kind of second cousin or brother, I don’t remember exactly, who is a lover of weapons, with He’s not at all friendly with his head; in short, he’ll shake the whole soul out of him! And not only did he disappear, but he also took with him a jackpot in the form of your virginity!
— Open the second bottle! — Seungmin sighs in disappointment, and Minho pops the cork of wine, handing Felix the bottle so that he can fill the glasses.
***
Several days had passed since that night and Han still hadn’t shown up, which scared the hell out of the omega. Not only did Seungmin give him his virginity, but Hyeongjun also gave him the mark. This mark was like a stamp that he was someone else’s property now, which means that if Han decides to leave him, no one will want to meet with him, he is a stranger, he is marked. A new wave of fear enveloped poor Oh, who now began to sit at home more often, trying to calm himself down with naive thoughts that the alpha would return and everything would be fine. At the same time, the fear of being abandoned was constantly pressing, because Jungsu left him just like that, and Hyeongjun seems to know him very well and even works for him. Seungmin at some point felt used, although Hyeongjun seemed completely different, but this expectation and uncertainty caused confusion in his head. The situation seemed to be repeating itself, the alpha disappeared from sight, silently, leaving behind either flowers or a basket of fruit. And being abandoned again became like an obsession, especially with this mark. Is he really worth nothing at all? Seungmin was completely lost in his thoughts, there were a couple of days left before the university, the report was abandoned, the very thought of remaining alone for the rest of his life did not allow him to concentrate on anything else. Minho and Felix were busy with part-time jobs and he didn’t want to bother them with his problem just yet. At times the mark pulsated, creating not only discomfort for the omega, but also taking away his strength. Why doesn’t Hyeongjun show up? Is everything okay with him? Is Seungmin screwing himself up or will he actually be alone for the rest of his life? Or maybe he will die completely from powerlessness, because the mark clearly weakens him, taking all his energy. — Honey, why are you crying? He never showed up? — Felix asked alarmedly when Seungmin let out a squelching groan into the phone. Oh was no longer able to keep what had happened to himself, Felix was his best friend and usually he doesn’t hide anything from him, so he was the first person he called. Seungmin also told him about the mark that Hyeongjun left him, and that he was worried not only about his future life, but also that he hadn’t more than one piece of information about the alpha. Tears of despair flowed unceasingly. — Sweetie? Calm down please! I can’t come now, there’s no one to replace me! Will I come to you tomorrow? Fine? — Felix worriedly tried to calm the crying Seungmin. — Can you not tell Minho anything for now? — Oh sniffles, — Otherwise he’ll definitely kick my ass because of what a loser I am! — this suddenly amused the omega. — Certainly! We’ll definitely come up with something! I promise! Or will Minho have to be muzzled? — Felix laughs, playing along with Seungmin’s sudden joke. — Necessarily! Now Oh’s soul felt a little lighter; it was too hard to keep it inside.***
Seungmin nevertheless decided to go deeper into preparing the report, because there was only a day left before the university and he didn’t want to think about anything bad, and he didn’t intend to fly out of the university. He now needs to distract himself from the bad thoughts that have sucked all the juice out of him over these couple of days. Let it be at least studying, he didn’t want to leave the house in such a state. Oh brewed delicious aromatic tea, prepared some sweets and sat down at the computer, placing the food next to him on the coffee table. He didn’t feel like eating at all, he had no appetite, but Felix promised to come in today, and then at least he’d feed him some delicious treats. He has already gotten used to the way he now smells of strawberries and raw grass mixed with iron. The only thing he didn’t agree with now was the disappearance of the alpha and he knew for sure that if he met him, he would definitely start a showdown, because life now seemed different, after their meeting with Hyeongjun, after the mark, they were still before his eyes night. Seungmin, somewhere deep inside, believed that the alpha would show up. His tear-stained face was slightly swollen, but the mark on his shoulder was pulsating so fiercely, as if convincing Oh to calm down a little, as if the disappeared alpha would appear in his life. Surprisingly, the project is written somehow easily and Seungmin really gets lost in his work until he is distracted by a knock on the door. First thought: — It’s probably Felix… he promised to come today. Omega jumps up from his workplace and hurries to open the door, supposedly for his friend, but freezes when he sees Han on the threshold. He is still dressed in his biker outfit, he still smells of damp grass and iron, he looks at Seungmin with alarm. Tears automatically well up in his eyes, his lips pout, and the omega realizes that he now wants to yell at the alpha for making him worry so much and feel abandoned for a moment. Of course, first Seungmin pulls him into his apartment and slams the door loudly, uncharacteristically for him. - Where have you been, Hyeongjun? — Oh’s voice sounds quiet, inside himself, of course, he realizes that he probably doesn’t have the right to talk like that, because they are not even in a relationship. None of them discussed the relationship between them and this now worries the omega even more. What if right now Hyeongjun says that he won’t come again and that he doesn’t need Seungmin anymore? While the alpha was silent, not the best thoughts were still floating in his head. There’s also this mark on his shoulder, how can you leave it and evaporate like that? This is not some kind of joke for omega. Experiences hit him red in the face, a lump in his throat, he now stands in front of the alpha, all teary and nervous from what is happening. The omega’s helplessness hits the alpha’s pride and he takes a step towards him. Hyeongjun silently pulls Seungmin to him, hugging him very tightly around the waist, not even allowing him to breathe normally in his tenacious paws. He buries himself in his beloved neck, inhaling the scent of omega, trying to calm the tearful Seungmin. Omega relaxes in the alpha's arms, his soul becomes calm, Oh understands that now he will not die exhausted from the flaming mark, he will not remain useless to anyone, and he did not need anyone else at all. All the omega wanted was to belong to this alpha. Indeed, when Hyeongjun appears, the mark stops burning painfully; on the contrary, it pours into Seungmin like a new stream of energy, from which his body goes limp. — Sorry, princess, I was working. I had to help my brother with business papers. — Han is lying because it’s better for the omega not to know the truth yet. Omega's safety is the most important thing for him. He is ready to allow Seungmin everything, as long as he is calm and no longer worries about anything. The alpha smiles slightly, he feels the smell of his mark on the omega and only squeezes him tighter in his arms and kisses his temple.
