Un-admiration

My soul’s remainings are burning with fire Crossing the bridges between hate and zest: Un-admiration and un-desire Painful, deliriously seethe in my chest. Looking like martyr and burning from anger, Like in a pleasant and horrible dream, I see you making a bright little banger In plain bottles, like my dreams comes real. Your gorgeous speech sounds strong and non hectic, But i am giddy like i wound in binge! If you would imagine how do you majestic You’d cringe from pain, like I’m always cringe! I see your veins under eyes like a lightnings, Wonder how lovely your bit crooked fangs I hardly fight my unhealthy exciting — And unerstoond that I want you in pangs. I look away, and my face paint in scarlet You look disapprovingly… Swear, i am fine! I’ve found perverted and shockingly target: Take your pale body and make part of mine — I want to touch your destroyable bones Wear your body like dressy nice suit! I heard creaking of shelf with your potions And was distracted and called by you. Time’s dragging slowly and I’m close to crying, I was resigning myself like i must. I don’t want be silent witness of dying And just hold strongly old chemical flask.