A place to call home

A year has passed since the Akatsuki returned home. Home is the place where you are welcome and where you feel safe, in short… They call their world home, even though they are not welcome. No one is waiting for me either, but I don’t consider this world my home. Wonder what it’s like to own a home? The place that you call home… I don’t know this feeling. And I was almost able to completely suppress other feelings. Pity, tears, love — I practically don’t feel them. Hatred, rage, the desire to kill — this is what this world gave me. Wonderful feelings, but there is a high price for them… Death… Just a year ago I could breathe normally, look at the world, and move around. And now… Now I can’t do practically anything normally. My eyes cannot clearly see further than 10-15 centimeters, there is hellish pain in them. Perhaps my vision has already dropped to minus six, the previous one was minus four and a half… Breathing is intermittent, at times it is difficult to get enough air into your lungs. Sometimes you feel like you are suffocating. Movement is almost unbearable. Pain throughout the body — from head to toe. There are hellish cold pains in the spine. Why cold? Because it was always hot there. Every bone ached. The most terrible ones were in the neck, which prevented you from even breathing. Veins appeared on the arms. Now the main thing is not to accidentally cut them on wood, metal, even plastic and paper. Skin and bones — that’s who I am now. And I live, no, I survive with only one desire — to die as soon as possible. Preferably quickly and painlessly… Or better yet, in a dream. Speaking of dreams. With their appearance, I began to dream about different stories, but the key ones were with Deidara and Obito. Why these two? I don’t know… But besides them, I also dreamed of other strange personalities: Akatsuki, Iwagakure no Sato, Konohagakure no Sato, Hachibi and Juubi. The last thing I least expected to see… I once told Obito that I liked their world better than this one. And I said this in all seriousness. For some reason I want to call their world my home. I don’t know what this is connected with, but… Ahem… I want to say, say and will say that their world is my home. If I die, then perhaps this is how I will return home… **** What have I been doing all this year? I haven’t gotten out of bed since the beginning of the year. This is some kind of hell. You can’t lift anything — your hands hurt, it’s impossible to look at the world — your eyes hurt. Your body hurts, as if a roller had passed over you. Yes, and I have some bad luck. There was practically nowhere to earn money, I was expelled from the institute, my friends abandoned me, and they themselves didn’t really talk to me. True, this is more of a plus than a minus. The condition of a dying person, and I am only nineteen years old. One wish to die quickly… Another worthless day has passed. There’s nothing even to tell… Well, what happened during all these days — natural human needs, a phone, a laptop and a bed. All! Recently, the laptop was covered with a copper basin — a special basin. And he came to replace him: “Ichthyander come out, report in order! Everything that happened, everything that will happen to me, show the horseman the phone. Started watching the Boruto series. Honestly, he’s not particularly interesting without Akatsuki. Sekiei as an alternative to White Zetsu and Deidara, Shizuma as an alternative to Kisame, etc., etc… Instead of Akatsuki — Kara, instead of Obito and Madara — Ootsutsuki, instead of Sasuke and Naruto — Kawaki and Boruto. Originals are always better than copies… **** Dream. It’s one o’clock in the morning, as usual… Darkness. Impenetrable darkness. Emptiness. There is nothing around, no light, no breath of wind. Nothing… Suddenly a voice comes out of nowhere: “I would never have thought that there are people who would so easily want to give up their lives.” Even if she wasn’t nice to them… I turned to its source. The space began to change dramatically. From the pitch darkness in the surroundings, shades reminiscent of space or the starry sky began to appear. Underfoot, the earth became water. The illumination of white light came from somewhere unknown, it seemed that something was trying to escape from the darkness. But these are small things compared to those who were in front of me. A man in a white kimono with black magata designs on the collar. He had a staff in his hands. I think this is enough to understand that in front of you is none other than… —Ootsutsuki Hagoromo, Hermit of the Six Paths. — A little unable to believe what I saw, I pronounce his name. -Right. “U-unexpected meeting…” I can feel nervous in my voice. It’s not every day you see a Shinobi God! -Don’t worry so much. You have nothing to fear. -Yes, Hagoromo-sama. It’s just that it’s not every day that you see the Hermit of the Six Paths himself… You didn’t just, so to speak, come to me in a dream, did you? -Are you sure it’s a dream? -I died? -May be… -If so, then your appearance is associated with rebirth into another world. And I already realized that we are talking about yours. “Your death doesn’t surprise you at all?” “I’ve been dreaming about her for a long time.” More precisely, since I was 10 years old… Nothing keeps me here. I have no friends, no family, no dreams, no desires — nothing. Everything I dreamed about disappeared like sand through my fingers. And yes, I realize that I myself got rid of them, but they, too, one might say, ran away from me… —Do you have any regrets about your life? -Everyone has them, but not everyone recognizes them. But I… Yes, I recognize them. All I wanted for these remaining years was to be needed. But they rejected me, they didn’t give me the will to do it. Hagoromo-sama, I hope that the world in which I will be, I can call my home and be needed — by the Country, the village, etc… -Hmm… You are definitely an interesting person. I’ve never seen anyone like you. — He paused for a short time — Before you are reborn in a new world, I will give you the opportunity to make your life a little easier. Three wishes — ability, elements, techniques, whatever you want… -Thank you Hagoromo-sama. — bow — The first wish is an ability called Carnage. In the world that I lived, there is a movie called Venom vs. Carnage. So, the features of Carnage are that tentacles appeared behind his back, which he used for various purposes, he could create weapons from body parts, control his victim and restore lost body parts, even his head. It is somewhat reminiscent of a technique called Jiongu. I want this ability. The second desire is vision. I want it to never sit down, even if the eyes are not mine. And the Third is complete resistance to genjutsu. I need to try to stop one person, and he is using illusions… I hope I’m not asking too much, Hagoromo-sama… - Hmm… Unusual wishes… But I will fulfill them. And I have two questions left: the elements and the village. “Hagoromo-sama, I will leave it up to you.” Choose fire and fog — I will be in the fog. Choose something else — so be it… -You really are an amazing person… Well, I’ll choose myself — where you will be reborn and with what element. “Thank you, Hagoromo-sama.” Thank you very much. Hagoromo waved his staff and everything around him began to change. Everything became like a whirlpool. But where does it lead? We will see this later…