But it hurts though...
November 14, 2023 at 3:55 AM
Evening fell on Seoul. The sunset painted the sky a beautiful pink shade and illuminated some of the houses. At this time, on this very cold evening, Park Jimin left the house. He walked, and a sad smile adorned his face. A couple of days have passed since Kim Namjoon passed away from his life. This choice was undoubtedly difficult, and it was hard for Park... He felt sad... sorrow... melancholy... He didn’t know how to distract himself. He decided to go outside, believing that in this way he could unwind and focus on himself and his thoughts. He walked along the streets of Seoul and looked sadly at the lights that had already been lit in some houses... At the lanterns that illuminated the roads. At this moment, Park involuntarily remembered evening walks with Namjoon. They walked holding hands... They laughed and joked... They were happy... and sometimes to the point of madness... And now, it has become something distant and inaccessible... Closed to Jimin. He walked and thought... I remembered all the good things that happened... These hugs... Hot and passionate kisses... Conversations about love... Gusts of crazy passion... Lonely evenings spent walking around the city... Park began to feel that he missed all these days. At this moment, he was overcome by melancholy... He lowered his head. Mentally, he wanted everything to return to its place... But Jimin understood that this was impossible, and those wonderful days in remote regions were a pleasant aftertaste of memories. Park didn’t know how far he had walked, but it was getting noticeably dark outside, and it would be worth going home. Jimin slowly walked forward, not reacting to anything, he was immersed only in his memories. So he walked until he was distracted by a familiar voice and a familiar laugh... Distracted, Park noticed... Namjoon. However... He did not feel joy. On the contrary, what he saw immediately brought tears to his eyes... Namjoon walked towards Jimin. Yes, not alone - he was with a guy unknown to Park. Both were happy. Namjoon hugged that guy and laughed merrily... Just like he once did with Jimin. Puck, unable to look at it any longer, took off from his seat and rushed towards the forest park with amazing speed... He ran, not noticing anyone or anything. And his thoughts were filled with what he had just seen... He felt extreme pain, and tears kept flowing from his eyes. Jimin really wanted to unsee this, he wanted him to just imagine it all, and it wasn’t Namjoon at all, but someone else. But alas, it was him. It hurt Park to realize how quickly a replacement was found for him. After all, once upon a time, he, Namjoon, considered him irreplaceable, swore that he would always be there... to support...
And now, after 2 long years... Namjoon suddenly lost interest in Jimin and decided to break up with him. Puck took it hard, because he still loved him.
And at this time, the guy reached the clearing... Clearings where sunlight always fell... To the same clearing where June confessed his love to him... And collapsed exhaustedly on the grass... So he lay there, and crystal tears continued to flow...
“Namjoon... You were my only support and support... At any time I was ready to support you... I was always ready to be there. My thoughts about you have never left me... They still don’t leave me now. I have never regretted knowing you... I was even glad about it, because you seriously changed my life, gave me light..... Every day with you was filled with bright emotions and pleasant memories... But unfortunately... These days and this time have passed... It’s a pity that all this ended abruptly... It seemed to me that we would be together for a long time, we would make each other happy... You are priceless to me even now. But... I'm nobody else for you. I can’t love you anymore... I can’t be around you... It’s all so hard... And to be honest, I would go back to that time... When we were both happy with each other, we were happy, and simply could not coexist without each other. But... As you know, everything ends someday. This is over too. Today I saw you happy... Your eyes were shining with joy again, your beautiful smile was shining on your face again... I again heard your beautiful laughter, which once made me happy... On the darkest days. But... Now your burning eyes... And laughter and smile... Are no longer intended for me. And this won't happen to me anymore... Now it's out of reach for me. I... I can't see you enjoying yourself with someone else like you did with me. It hurts... I can't stand this pain. I'm tired." — These were Jimin's last thoughts. His intermittent breathing slowed down from tears... And the eyes closed. Park remained lying in this clearing. In the clearing, where the story of this beautiful love began, which ended so sadly...