It's Ran or him

      No, Shinichi, you couldn’t save both of them now. Say, do you really want to save that man? That serial killer? Whose hands is filled with blood of dozen woman? As if you had forgotten the bloody mess that you've been seen so far Is that your moral?       Well, look then. Look at Ran, who’s been getting weaker and weaker. She doesn’t have powers to fight anymore. Heavy man’s body is pressing her to the ground, makes her scream and cry. Killer cuts her t-shirt, then skirt… Are you enjoying the view, Shinichi? Don’t worry, it’s not a rape. This killer love to cut women’s body, until he’ll get bored… Cut every single place, to see a lot of blood and leave scars.       Oh? You really tried to push killer of Ran? How brave, Shinichi! But aren’t you a bit weak compared to a martial arts champion? He punches you in stomach. Your body flies to the wall and falls to the ground as if you're some kind of toy... Your broken leg fills your body with pain. Good try, Shinichi, try something new.       Brick? Ha-ha, you’re sure you’ll throw it well? It flies too Ran’s shoulder and touches it. Ran wheezes. She’s on verge to lose consciousness…       You didn’t get it yet, Shinichi? It’s not a time to fight for your morals. Put your hand in your jacket and took Megure’s pistol from there. “If you’ll see him, shoot,” – don’t you remember that he said? Shouldn’t you listen to him?       How many bullets you have? Enough to turn killer into a sieve! You’re won’t this, aren’t you? You're aiming. You know that, if you’ll wait a bit more, you won't see your favorite smile, you won't hear her voice, you won't taste that homemade curry. You’ll blame your fight for your morals and a dead body of Ran Mouri.       Killer raised the knife above Ran. It’s now-or-never, Shinichi.       One shoot, one bullet – right to killer’s head. You knew best where’s to shoot, aren’t you? You jump to Ran to throw away the knife. Your leg makes you hiss, but you had to throw away the dead body from Ran.       Ran’s looking at you. You look at her while you calling the police and ambulance. And you saw Ran smile as soon as you ended talking. You wanted to say “sorry”, you wanted to scream “forgive me”, but you wheeze and ended up saying nothing.       When you saw doctors took Ran in hospital, Megure came near you. You hand him the gun with trembling hands. You whisper that you’d shot… And he just nods. Aren’t you a killer now? Why police are fine with it? You shoot a person! And they say that you should go to hospital to heal.       Congrats, Shinichi! You saved Ran’s life again, aren’t you? Why you keep feeling guilty? Ran doesn’t blame you, aren’t she? Oh, Kogoro did. He almost punched you for taking time before a you shoot. He blames you because you didn’t shoot before.       You blame yourself for shooting. Weren’t you saving Ran’s live? It’s was Ran or him and nothing else. No miracle would save them both. Don’t you see nurses whispering? They’ve been afraid walking alone for weeks after some of them was murdered. They’re happy that killer is dead. They’re happy, you’re not.       You had fight for your principles, Shinichi, but life is not a book. Doesn’t hero’s always kill a dragon in the end of fairy tales? Why people won’t call them “murder” after that?       Holmes too. He didn’t try to save Moriarty’s life on Reichenbach Falls. He’s not perfect like you. Like everyone.       Your reason is named Ran Mouri. Woman who you love. Woman you protect. Isn’t it wise?       If it is... how about calling Heiji or Haibara before they’ll visit you? You can ask them to buy Ran’s favorite flowers. You remember that she loves, every one of them. You also love orchids because of her name, aren’t you? Ran visits you often. She looks in your eyes, hoping that you better soon.       You hear her saying your name. Her short and quiet “Shinichi” makes you raise your hands to her and hug her close with all love you had for her. She knows what you're going through. She wants to help. That’s written in Ran’s eyes.       When she whispered a simple “thank you”, you finally break.       Shinichi… Isn’t this a right time to cry?