Truth of thought

Before he came to Cloud Recesses, Wei Ying did not once have thought about the existence of his soulmate. He had heard about people that had found their couple but preferred to think that this fate would be bypassed him — especially in the House of Righteousness and Piety. In the end, not many of the people had found their soulmate who was chosen from high above, and not all of them followed the dictates of destiny.   However, Wei Ying didn't much have faith in the existence of soulmates and preferred to think of them as old and very strange fairy tales.   The first time Wei Wuxian heard about soulmates was in his childhood; unknown saleswomen were talking about it when he walked around Lotus Pier. Those women told soulmates could sense what his couple thought about them. Wei Ying still hadn't much faith in real this, not understanding how a person can feel another person's thoughts about him.   A couple of days after the start of their study, Wei Ying changed his mind about soulmates in existence. Moreover, he — the son of a servant — has a destiny from the high, which Wei Wuxian is definitely sure of here, in the Cloud Recesses.   Figuring out who it is doesn't work out.   He had sensations that were extremely convincing and experienced a variety of strange processes that had nothing to do with ordinary human experience. The fact, it also comes to him when he was alone, amounts to when in watchful class silence he discovers an indwelling Presence among so many students around. It happens every day... even at this very moment. He’s lifting his head absent-mindedly, glancing at the adepts. In this pavilion, where they have a lesson, they assemble cultivators from four eminent clans, and only Wen is missing. There are too few young maidens and many young men.   The tenderness that someone gentle is grasping him by hand reappears in the same area where the first feeling happened. Jiang Cheng and Nie Huaisang are arguing about something — it's no time for them to dream.   Jumping up from a rock, Wei Ying began hastily looking around. In the distance of him, walking along the white stone road, he noticed Lan Zhan and in those moments he shouted his name, greeting and offering to join them thoughts about the soulmate immediately disappeared. Puff!   Fortunately, Wei Ying does not let such things like this such an evident cruel denial upset him, probably because it’s predicted. Making a little snort, he sits back on the rock. Jiang Cheng habitually reprimands his shixiong for the unnecessary obnoxiousness — and Nie Huaisang advises him not to harass Lan Wangji.   The sensation of someone taking his hand and stroking a palm or wrist has changed to another strange feeling, which Wei Ying does not know how to react to. The lips stabbed, arising taste from the action as if someone's tongue swiped it and crushed by something soft and melty-like smashing up the head with a jug of Emperor's smile and then cropping up the feeling as if someone dippy played with his tongue.   Although Wei Ying flirts with maidens, he has never kissed in his life, but he can't help but realize that in someone else's fantasies that's what's being done to him.   Feeling this for the first time, Wei Ying blushed and didn't know where he can put himself. He silly hide his face in his palms as if it might help him, and wondered if he should be mad at his soulmate and can he named this his first kiss.   Then was a second day, and there was somebody who kissed him again in dreams and much bolder than the night before.   Decide that he can't notice a person, who thinks so much of him, sitting in one place, Wei Ying finds the solution. Throughout the week he goes around to the other students in Cloud Recesses and asks them to introduce themselves in some way to him.   Nothing comes out of this.   After a while, Wei Ying receives a punishment: three times to rewrite the rules of Gusu Lan three times.   Lan Wangji sits across from him, rewriting the text, and already proved with a spell of silence that it's better to stay away from him.   The first days in the company of Second Jade pass quietly. Wei Ying has time to think about the fact that his soulmate — whoever he is — already had disappointed in him.   And then the feeling as if somebody takes his hand suddenly crashes down at him. Already used to it, Wei Ying freeze for a moment and then begin to draw hieroglyphs again. It was as if someone else’s fingers sliding over his skin, caressing the first back of the palm, and then slowly moving to the wrist, shifting the sleeve.   Lately, Wei Ying has too used to this, and he should admit that he start like those feelings.   Ghost hands disappearing and it's happened too much faster. Wei Ying thinks that someone interrupted his soulmate — although it happened no time before because this could last for hours. But in a few moments, the ghost hands his soulmate return to him and gently touch his shoulders. The feeling of a soft kiss falls up firstly on the cheekbones and then — onto his lips. War Ying barely fidgets on the place and look away, while he blushes. Glancing at Lan Wangji, he find him writing something unknown.   On this day there is nothing more to happen.

  ***

  His soulmate’s thoughts about him scare Wei Ying sometimes.   The night before in his dreams, his soulmate kissed his neck. Soft kisses felt like something strange, but it was nice. Whoever this person is, in his thoughts he exactly knows what to do.   What happened once will happen again and again.   Sitting across from Lan Wangji, an always a cold man, Wei Ying feels himself strange and blushing more than before, when someone else’s ghost lips cover his neck.   “Don’t get distracted.”   Shuddering, Wei Ying suddenly noticed, that had looking at Lan Wangji too much longer.   This thought visit him several times, but Wei Wuxian has had drove it away.   This cold Second Jade can't be his soulmate, yes? Lan Wangji will rather dream about killing such a rule breaker like Wei Wuxian than dream about him like a man to kiss and caress.   “Ah” sadly sighs the young man and falls on the table with the whole body. “It’s so boring, Lan Zhaan!”   “Don’t get distracted” saying he back.   Wei Wuxian lets out another low moan as if that might appease Jade.   The ghost lips remind him of his soulmate again, when they cover the back of his neck. This time convulsion sigh not because it's boring. Someone else's hands touch his waist, gently stroking.   With a quick glance at Lan Wangji, Wei Ying notice he is still busy writing something important. The face of Second Jade looks relaxing, but the focused look says far from peaceful. Ears, which are almost completely hidden by hair, are barely red.   “What is this about?” wondered Wei Ying.   Keep this thought for a long time he can't; soulmate’s ghost lips covering his neck again, and then the tongue — ghost, too, — touches the skin next, and then it looks like someone else's hand moving on his body with soft insecurity.   Hide his face in his beat hands, Wei Ying hopes that his reaction — a bloody embarrassing reaction — is unnoticeable by Lan Wangji. Wei Ying can't help but his body responds against its will to these ghostly caresses, blowing up a storm inside. He doesn't already know who is his soulmate, so it's too strange to react to the caresses of somebody unknown, moreover, if these hands and lips are echoing somebody's thought   The hands and lips disappear again, allowing Wei Ying to exhale and bring his slightly labored breathing back to normal.   “The sooner you do it, the sooner you get out of punishment,” says Lan Wangji the voice full of coldness.   Wei Ying really wants to resent, because how can he rewrite rules, when someone very brave in his thoughts kisses him and caresses him?   “You offer to do the impossible, Lan Zhan!”   Finally, Lan Wangji takes his eyes off his work and looks at the guilty. Despite the fact that the young man’s face is as if ice is on the river in winter, Wei Ying feels as if he take his breath away.   “What's stopping you?”   The point of the question doesn't immediately come to Wei Ying, and when it does, he averts his gaze in haste and doesn't know what to say.   Many, if not all, know about soulmates, but it's one thing to meet that person and another is to hear about this.   Maybe, if Jiang Cheng had asked the question that asked him Lan Wangji, he could answer him, but it's Lan Wangji, and he can't tell the truth to him.   “It's nothing.” Wei Ying says.   Without lifting his head, Wei Wuxian returns to punishment.   And again, like a day before, the soulmate's thought becomes silent.

  ***

  Evenings haunt Wei Ying with the same kisses and soft, innocent caresses. This day seems to have decided to become special.   Ghosty hands habitual stroking his waist, and Wei Ying can't fight back that nice touch. He was alone in the room; Jiang Cheng went out drinking with Nie Huaisang when his soulmate recalled himself.   Ghostly palms disappeared from his waist and set down on his cheeks slowly and softly squeezed them. Unexpected, Wei Ying let out quite sight and look at the ceiling with wide eyes. The kisses slowly go down the collarbones, and then he feels sharp pain as if someone bit his skin. Wei Wuxian sighs again, his breath hitched, and he try to understand his own feelings. Other hands stroked his hips again and again, and it was so near to his dick. Swallowed hard, Wei Ying lies on his bed waiting for what will going after.   Someone’s lips slide under his robes, and it feels so strange that he sharply sat up and throws off all his robes. Soulmate’s hand touch his legs less and more down before they returned up and squeezed his hard erection.   Then he slowly realized how hard he was.   Wei Ying had nearly no breath at the thought that someone’s dreams, who didn’t choose him but it was Gods, were so intense that he become hard, big, and very horny. Impossible! Moreover, he didn’t really realize that he start like this so much.   Thoughts didn’t stay for long; ghostly hands confidently grabbed him in a huge palm. Someone thumbs the head of his erection, and Wei Ying gasp with no strange to hold out as they slide down and up, touching every vein, and the kiss changed to sucking and biting him, and Wei Ying feel the pleaser in his belly. It was so good that he closed his eyes and forgot about all in this moment.   Even though it was strange, and he didn’t really know who was his soulmate, but now Wei Ying feel so good and it’s nothing at all that it was only someone’s dreams.   In one moment, those illusive touches feel so less that Wei Ying reaches for the cock and grip, feeling it’s all so much and uncommon. It’s feeling like two in one; he was overwhelmed by the sense of his hand and the other’s, which brought with it a double pleasure. Plenty of kisses fall over his chest before a little bite his skin and back up to his neck.   The moan goes out of his mouth.   A few grinds his hand and Wei Ying comes with a soft sob. Kisses didn’t go over and a soulmate's hand didn’t disappear from his cock, to continue to smooth him. Breathless, Wei Ying felt himself so sensitive and overwhelmed and melting that it all becomes too much for him.   For Wei Ying's luck, a ghostly caress comes over very soon. Tired and all-out, he makes all he can to clean himself, change clothes and go to sleep. The dream comes to him immediately.

  ***

  On one of the days of punishment, Wei Ying sets eyes on Lan Wangji for a while and then asks “Do you believe in soulmates Lan Zhan?”.   The Second Jade lifts his gaze on the other boy and stares so sharp and full fully of cold that Wei Wuxian immediately feels sorry for the question. It’s not really important, after all, and Wei Ying only can’t help but think all over these day's that it’s not his illusion, not his body's response to adolescence, and not even a curse.   Anyway, Lan Wangji absolutely thinks it’s stupid, ridiculous, foolish, or something that can’t even exist.   “Not refuse” unhurried says Lan Wangji.   “Oh,” Wei Ying breathed in surprise. “Is that to mean you believe in this?”   Lan Wangji lightly shakes his head and returns to his task, leaving Wei Ying alone with chaotic thoughts.

  ***

  The ghostly soulmate becomes the reason why Wei Ying is distracted by rewriting rules more often and starts to learn inner decoration of the library and have a look at Lan Wangji. Meanwhile, he thought about how to get such an unshakeable cultivator as Lan Wangji to get emotional.   Recently Wei Wuxiang gave a gift to Lan Wangji, two rabbits that he found at the edge of Cloud Recesses (and he recalls how by no reason his soulmate kissed every inch of his face). And at another time he gave him a portrait of Lan Wanfji drawn by himself and he was contentedly by the cultivator's red ears. Just yesterday before he leave the library, Wei Ying unknowingly take out the previously thwarted white flower and entwined this in Lan Wangji's hair.   Wei Wixian doesn't sure if The Second Jade destroyed his gift or saved but he was all the same satisfied.   It was a natural thing to take care of Lan Wangji and give him presents, and Wei Ying don't know the reason for this desire.   What happened once can never stop. Wei Ying is completely lost in his feelings. He likes what happens whit him but in the meantime, it scares him.   Even though Wei Ying doesn't know who is his soulmate he guessed that the unknown fate is a man because one evening he feels something like a cock that bumps into his hips. Although it was a wrong thing at first, Wei Ying was quite fast accustomed to this thought.   Wei Yong brings his hand back with a sigh and scratches a nape. The thoughts are tangled and hieroglyphics unpleasantly float in front of the eyes recalling about sleepless night.   All the time that he could spend asleep Wei Ying thought about soulmates, build assumptions, and even has come up with a list of nominees those not as much as could be. He also supposes to though about someone while walking through Gusu but-   Furtively rise his gaze on Lan Wangji so he wouldn't see, We Ying quality sigh.   Although all thoughts about anyone vaulted to cold Second Jade of Lan. Wei Wuxian doesn't sure that knows this cultivator quite enough to fall in love but it seems that all his attempts to get Lan Wangji's emotional turn in this. They spend so much time together because of Wei Wuxian's punishment but talk too less as The Second Jade of Lan taciturn.   So how could he fall in love with this ice block?   With a sigh, Wei Ying leaned back and this time he looks at Lan Wangji openly.   It's like a little trick. In the end, Wei Ying has a rich fantasy.   After a brief moment of reflection, Wei Ying imagines sliding his hand over Lan Wangji's robes, touching the fingertips of skin just below the caddy, rising up to the shoulder and barely touching the loose hair. The foolish thought never releases him so Wei Ying imagines leaving on Lan Wangji's skin the light, innocent kiss and then kissing him more determinedly whit using his tongue.   It's hot, and it's awkward. Wei Ying thought that imagining himself with someone like this is strange and pleasantly and it spurs more lewd thoughts like those than his soulmate had to him.   Focusing on his own thoughts, Wei Ying looks at Lan Wangji's neck and imagines in all detail he barely bit and sucks a soft skin, leaving small but bright marks. In his thoughts, Wei Ying rises up again and grabs the earlobe with his lips, and plays, and all this time he hears Lan Wangji's voice calling him and a barely perceptible sigh.   Suddenly appears ghostly hands that made him sigh and a noisy half-sigh, half-groan, and these hands firmly and tangibly grab his cock.   His eyes widen when Wei Ying finally starts notis all things around him; Lan Wangji looks at him with widened glassy eyes as he and his ears become red.   "What?" sharply exhales Wei Ying doesn't know what to say or do in such a sensitive situation like this   "Wei Ying-" he hears an exhale in answer.   In Lan Wangji's voice calling him Wei Ying hears a light wheeze and it made him exhale again; it was like a groan was going to go out of his throat.   Lan Wanfji just escapes leaving dumbfound Wei Wuxian alone.

  ***

  The days of punishment ended abruptly and the day after the incident happened. Lan Xichen came personally to notify him about this.   Any hope of talking to the Second Jade of Lan is shattering and never what to gather again. While Wei Ying pondered the incident he tangle in all. One thought that was especially intrusive never leaving Wei Ying's head; what if Lan Zhan is his soulmate?   "Where-' Wei Ying hesitates. "Where is Lan Zhan?"   Wei Ying looks at the leader of GuSu Lan with slight fear, afraid if Lan Zhan told his brother about the happened between them.   "Wangji got out of Cloud Recesses for the week by uncle's order.   The answer doesn't make it any easy and the stone on Wei Ying's soul became more heavier. Anyway, he could do nothing with Lan Wangji left Cloud Recesses.   "That student understood everything."   Bow low as rules order, Wey Ying leaves the library not looking his way much.

  ***

  It takes to Wei Ying two days to comprehend an incident in the library and come to a certain conclusion, and all these days his soulmate is not showing any signs as if persuading him more.   Maybe he could come up whit this but Wei Ying doesn't see any explanations for why Lan Zhan almost escaped the library forgetting about the rules and looked so amazed.   Could it be that Lan Zhan and he are soulmates?   This thought seems like the truest of delusions because Wei Ying is sure Lan Wangji hates him; such righteous and rule-following gongzi explicitly couldn't dream about something indecent especially with Wei Wuxian.   Couldn't, right?   Or could?   If he could- In that way Wei Ying doesn't know what to thought. They tangle in clew of contradictory feelings that he barely could unravel himself don't know the feeling of the other side.   With a sigh, Wei Wuxian observes the debate his shidi and Nie Huaisang about their future outing for wine. Covering half of his face with a fan, Nie Huaisang tries to give Jiang Cheng reasons; his brother will break his legs if finds out something like this, and Jiang Cheng state that will break his leg by himself if Nie Huaisang will not go in town again.   Earlier Wei Ying has a talk with friends about soulmates interesting if they believe in such things. They barely could help but-   "How do you know who is your soulmate?"   Both friends fall silent. Jiang Cheng stares at Wei Wuxian as if he said something foolish, and Nie Huaisang curiously peeks out of his fan.   "That's why you interview all here!" exclaims shidi, and his gaze becomes stern.   "Yeah, that's why, and what?"   Wei Ying stares at him with a challenge.   Soulmates are a rare phenomenon so there are not many people who believe in them and all it's existence seems excessively strange.   Jiang Cheng hums and rises up the head.   "Nothing," quips Wei Ying.   Hitherto silent, Nie Huaisang suddenly laughs softly.   "Jiand-xiong just was interesting why you interview all the other disciples."   "Nie Huaisang!"   Nie Huaisang sidesteps in time so Jiang Cheng who lent himself forward to catch the friend falls into the water. Wet from head to legs, Jiang Cheng literally throws lightning bolts. Wei Wuxiang high-fives with his friend.   "Excellent work, Ne-xiong!"   It's a little later when Jiang Cheng calms down and even a slightly dry, Nie Huaisang stare at Wei Ying and sits down near him. He covers his face with a fan more than usual as if wants to share the secret or other important. Staying away from them Jiang Cheng diligently squeezes water from his boots and, grumbling, not converts any attention to others.   "You know, Wei-xiong," quietly says Nie Huaisang, "Once I had heard that soulmates will reach out to each other until they admit to feelings."   Wei Ying thoughtfully stares at his friend. Last time Nie Huaisang don't say anything savvy and only agree with the soulmates' existence.   "Reach out?" asked Wei Wuxian.   "Yeah," Nie Huaisang nods. "The more your soulmate thinks about you, the more you're attracted to it. The man who told me this named this feeling insanity."   Later, Wei Ying a lot of thinks about it.   If what Nie Huaisang said is to be believed, then all guessworks are true. It truly seems like he insanity, and he was strangely attracted to Lan Wangji despite the fact that there were no suggestions of the soulmate's identity. A more exciting thought comes to his mind; if his feelings are deceitful and imposed by this strange bond? How can he trust his own feelings and even thoughts?   A couple that Wei Ying met in childhood brings to his mind; that people told him about soulmates, and he remembers how happy were they.   Tangled, he couldn't go sleep again.

  ***

  After a week Wei Wuxian gets up earlier than usual and stands outside the entrance to the pavilion until lessons start. An hour goes by, another hour goes by, when disciples come in order to have time before Lan Qizhen arrives. Wei Ying gazes at everyone, responds with a hello, and looks at the pathway that leads to the halls. After Nie Huaisang and Jiang Cheng arrive Wei Ying is compelled to sit down on his place.   Lan Wangji doesn't show up for lessons and his soulmate stays silent as days before as if assuring him more and more of truthfulness guesses; all of this made him fret.   For some reason, Wei Ying couldn't find Lan Xichen too. The young leader of the sect typically has lunches with others as days before and quite often attends lessons pavilion in time when there are training with swords, but today Wei Ying couldn't see The First Jade of Lan anywhere.   The days after repeated and Wei Ying couldn't catch any of Jade.   "Maybe, you should try to visit him?" quietly advises Nie Huaisang one of these days.   This suggestion pleases Wei Wuxian, but it's barely feasible. In fact, this thought had visited him before.   "I don't know where he lives" Wei Ying shakes his head.   Nie Huaisang sigh and cover his face with a fan which made this definitely clear; he don't know about this nothing too.   "Don't understand why are you seeking him," Jiang Cheng wrinkles looking at Wei Wuxian, "but I know."   "Shidi! You're the best!"   Jiang Cheng immediately tries to pull back from Wei Wuxian who pounced on him with a hug.   The place where Lan Wangji lives Wei Ying recognizes after all.       Bell hasn't rang yet above Cloud Recesses but the pathways already were covered veil of the night. On his way, Wei Wuxian met about nine disciples of other sects and none of Lan as if all of them as one decided to leave. Overall, Lan Wangji's jingshi settles down at a significant distance from other's disciples' buildings.   Come close, Wei Ying sees the faded light of candles from windows and it's encouraging him. He quietly walked to the door and, staying there for a moment, tentatively knocks.   Eventually, Wei Ying doesn't expect Lan Wangji will open the door as doesn't expect he doesn't close it immediately.   A minute goes by, then the next, and Wei Wuxian is already thinking of leaving when the door is opening. Lan Wangji looks like surprised when recognizes a visitor, and Wei Ying notice in his gaze confusion.   "Lan Xhan!" exhale Wei Ying, in fact, don't expect to see him today or any other nearest time, sure half that The Second Jade of Lan is busy with something important. "Wait! Don't close the door, please! Or close, but say before where we can talk to... At least tomorrow."   If Wei Ying didn't know Lan Wangji this gaze which he overcasts him scared Wei Ying. He didn't sure if reads the other man right but it seems in his gaze something that remind him uncertainly.   After standing at the door for a while, Lan Wangji stepped aside to offer to come in. For a good moment, Wei Ying forgets how to breathe and tentatively steps over the threshold. The mind suddenly goes blank and Wei Ying barely catches the moment when Lan Zhan closes the door and comes deep into the chambers. Wei Ying follows him hardly reversing any attention to decorating of the chambers and just clings to the guqin his gaze.   What's going on seems like no preparation for a conversation but rather friends meeting or at least familiar.   As a hospitable owner and noble gongzi of Lan, Lan Wangji makes tea for them and invites Wei Wuxian to the table.   Wei Ying observes in every Lan Wangji movement strange excitement.   To Wei Ying's surprise, Lan Wangji serves him fragrant tea of flowers and it's certainly a beverage distant from those forced to drink at breakfast, lunch, and especially dinner.   "Thanks, Lan Zhan," Wei Ying smiles and siping flawlessly delicious tea.   Lan Wangji nods in answer but his gaze lowered to the table.   "You- wanted to talk."   Wei Ying squeezes the bowl in his hands and lowers his eyes too.   Thoughts disappear again like any variations of their conversation Wei Ying had previously thought out. He issues a hazy agreeable sound and clears his throat trying to come up with a plan for escape or a plan for their conversation; in the end, Wei Ying decides to go with a flow.   "Yeah," says Wei Ying and look at Lan Wangji, "yeah, I wanted. Do you remember- " he hesitates and clears his throat again. "Do you remember my question about soulmates?"   "Mn. Remember," immediately answer Lan Wangji.   Even if Wei Ying noticed Lan Wangji's red ears, he decides to ignore this and just notes other's embarrassment.   Maybe, he isn't the one here who was building guesswork.   "Ah, how do you think, could we be-" Embarrassed more than usual even if he was called by everyone shameless, Wei Ying stumble again. He takes a sip of tea trying to conceal excitement and makes himself continue. "Could we be soulmates?"   Both of them keep silent, and its silence seems Wey Ying rather excited or at least restless than oppressive or gloomy.   "It's not out of the question," no longer after responds Lan Wangji.   Wey Ying understands they both feel something roughly similar; Lan Wangji's ears become altogether red.   Becomes clear that they both a fate of each other. Guesswork and doubts disappear, and acceptance and certainly replace them. Wei Wuxian doesn't sure what feels now when ascertained that Lan Zhan his soulmate but it's defiantly not sadness. Appears rather excitement and uncertainly in feelings, a lightness that it's not someone horrible and unfamiliar.   Looking at Lan Wangji, Wei Ying tries to read this man but it's quite hard to unravel Lan Wangji staring in his bowl of tea.   At the door, Lan Zhan's feelings were half-openly to him and maybe, it was caused by unexpectedly.   What is there another thing besides confusion that Lan Wangji feels? And if he have any feelings to him?   "So, how do you feel about this?"   Wei Ying is too afraid to rise his gaze up so he looks down and squeezes a bowl more.   He was invited into chambers and offered tea but it's meaning nothing.   In this world, too little people are destined for each other by fate. They are both men and it's has no matter who you are it's not normal relationships.   "How do you think?" responded Lan Wangji.   It's no need to deliberate. There is one total in spite of how many plans Wey Yind didn't make; he's feelings will not be accepted. Lan Wangji is too righteous and too adherent to rules for even let opportunity such feelings and it's that prohibits Wei Ying thought about The Second Jade of Lan as his soulmate.   In the end, they both like fire and ice that are opposite each other.   What he, the rules breaker, can? Lan Wangji is a noble bloodline from the named sect; and he, Wei Wuxian, is the son of a servant having nothing. The response is clear as the sun on a cloudless day.   After all, could they really be sure they were soulmates? The incident in the library and subsequent lull could be no more than coincidence. Wei Wuxian yet is not sure that The Second Jade of Lan could think about someone especially a man and even more so Wey Ying in a similar way.   "I understood, Lan-gongzi," he swallows and closes his eyes. "This disciple will not bother you again."   Suddenly for himself, Wei Ying manages just rise up when Lan Wangji stronger grab his hand and doesn't let to leave. Throwing a glance at him, Wei Wuxian loses all his word; The Second Jade of Lan for the first time seems so wounding and the gaze of his literally screams "Don't leave!" and stunned Wei Ying doesn't move.   "Don't say that counter to," quietly whispers Lan Wangji. "And we doesn't yet- doesn't yet convince in this."   "Yeah," Wei Wuxian agrees in a low voice, "So. Who will-"   Before they decide who and about whom will thought, Lan Wangji persistently returns Wei Ying back.   Somehow it's all coming together that Lan Zhan will try to think about Wei Ying somehow. Sits opposite the other man, he now and then moves worrying and staring at the sides waiting for any sensations. In his turn, Lan Wangji closes his eyes and asks for some time.   The fear that he made a mistake as Lan Wangji rises up and Wei Ying doesn't know what they will do if their guesswork is wrong because the situation becomes too much awkward.   And if only presume what they will do if happened another and turn out to be that they are soulmates. In this case, it will be more awkward and Wei Ying isn't yet sure about his feelings.   Once appears the feels as if someone hugs him from back and all thoughts leave his mind. Wei Ying looks at Lan Zhan and finds him centered; ghostly hands sense on his hips and belly is too real to count this delusion. Other's fingers as if holding his hand and squeeze.   "What are you doing, Lan Zhan?" askes Wei Ying.   The sense of the other's hands on his body disappears; Lan Wangji opens his eyes and stares at him.   "Hug," immediately respond Lan Zhan.   "From back, yeah? And squeeze my hand?" follow Wei Ying.   Lan Wangji nod and Wei Ying sigh, blushing and realizing a lot.   They both are soulmates. Lan Zhan thoughts about how caresses about him, Wei Ying, often and more and very intensely. Lan Zhan felt those kisses in the library when Wei Ying decided to dream about them together.   Feeling incredible shame, Wei Ying covers his face hands.   "Awful," whispers Wei Ying.   "We can forget this."   The cold voice of Lan Wangji knocks him off balance and Wei Ying rises a confused gaze at him   "Forget?" repeat Wei Ying and give in a response a nod. "You want to forget?"   Lan Wangji looks away.   "You want."   It takes only a few moments, and Wei Ying realizes the reason of Lan Wangji's words. Upon reflection, he slowly and tentatively bypasses the table and sits down near Lan Wangji.   "What makes you think I desire this?" whispers he looking at Lan Wangji. "Awful that's this bond is extremely embarrassing and gives away all thoughts. Doesn't sure if this was summoned by our bond but I have a strong feeling to you," he catches his breath and looks at his soulmate. "I love you, Lan Zhan. And I doesn't want to stop all of this between us."   "Wei Ying-"   "If you want to stop, I'll understand."   "Wei Ying-"   "Just say it to me."   When strong and barely cool hands cup his face, Wei Ying calm and looks at Lan Wangji. Only at this moment, he realizes how much he reaches for this man and the hell with it if these feelings are imposed by the bond.   "I love you too, Wei Ying."   Simple yet so important word in the same time that he uttered a moment before so easily left lips Lan Wangji. Wei Ying loses in senses and leans toward him first and kisses him as desires to kiss so many times before.   It's better to kiss Lan Wangji in reality, it's sweeter to sense his lips, it's more pleasant to touch him and it's more exciting to snuggle up to a desirable body.   Before only dreamed, they enjoys each other in this moment and doesn't wish to break the moment.