Hiding your desire

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Totomaru Isshiki had never really been interested in women. Even in high school it had sometimes been difficult for him to understand his friends as they were talking about pretty girls in their class, but nonetheless he never had any reason to doubt his heterosexuality before, since he wasn't interested in men, either. However, things changed when he met Ron Kamonohashi. Such unbearable, stubborn and self-willed people like the latter had always bothered Toto, who had been raised by his grandparents. But there was still something about him that made Toto's mind go blank every time he looked at him. More and more often he was catching himself at the thought of absolutely wanting to see Ron, just like that, despite being perfectly aware how frustrated the other got each time he visited him without a new case. But Totomaru still managed to always find reasons to visit his work partner: be it Kiku-san, who was treating Ron almost like his own son and wanted Toto to bring him his wife's cooking, be it Toto himself, just like now, deciding to buy brown sugar treats and give them to Ron "as a sign of gratitude for having solved the case". Yes, only that, and not because Toto liked to see that childishly sincere smile on his face. In fact, brown sugar was the only thing able to lift Ron's mood during the absence of new cases. In moments like these, Toto also wouldn't have minded trying to cheer him up with a hug, but in his opinion, this would have been too awkward, even for close partners like them. And besides, he didn't think that it would help Ron, anyway. Well, to be honest, to hug Ron wasn't the only thing Toto wanted, but also, for example, to bury his fingers into the other's tousled hair, move his bangs to the side and stare into his gorgeous blue eyes for all eternity. To press his nose against Ron's neck, inhale his scent and gently kiss his unusually shaped scar, and most of all: to kiss Ron's lips the latter had the habit to bite until the small wounds would appear. All these thoughts were scary, even for Toto himself. What should he do with these feelings? Well, anything, apart from revealing them to Ron. Toto's biggest fear was to see a negative reaction from the other, who could maybe even refuse to continue working with him. And apart from that, this was a completely new experience for the officer, so new that he wasn't even sure if this was really love or rather a temporary fixation, an interest for something unusual and new, something that would leave him as fast as it had appeared. "So why are you here?" his thoughts were abruptly interrupted by Ron, who was passionately devouring the sweets. That sudden question took Toto by surprise and made him blurt out without a second thought: "I decided to bring you sweets as a thank-you for your help." Ron's frown was even visible through his thick, black bangs. "That's already the fourth time since the last solved case." Toto facepalmed mentally, realizing how stupid his actions had to look right now. He had no clue what to say to not bury himself even deeper into trouble, but luckily, Ron decided to break the uncomfortable silence himself: "Whatever, all the better for me. I'm glad that your mental capacities were enough to notice my love for brown sugar and even remember it." He brought another spoon-full to his mouth, beaming with happiness. "However, I don't understand why you won't just say that you want to kiss me." As soon as he heard this, Toto paled, feeling something abruptly break inside of him and as though the ground was disappearing from under his feet. Ron was carefully examining his reaction. Toto knew this, but found it insanely difficult to even try to justify himself. "Hah, you're joking, right?" He attempted to laugh, but this was even harder than speaking. "Why would I want to kiss you? Don't think so highly of yourself." "Toto." Each time Ron pronounced that name, Isshiki was feeling a shudder run through his whole body, especially when he said it with a sigh, just like now. "Even for someone who is not a brilliant detective, it's not hard to understand what a person wants, who gets lost in thought and keeps staring at your lips while licking their own." "I didn't-..." But Ron didn't let him finish his sentence, coming closer all of a sudden and shortening the distance between them with one rapid movement. "Don't you understand that you're revealing yourself more and more with each passing second?" Ron chuckled, and Toto looked as though he was ready to die there and now, and not even from embarrassment, but rather from the fact that, from such a close distance, Ron's bewitching eyes were perfectly visible even through his hair. "If that's really your desire, then just do it, Totomaru Isshiki." The last sentence was whispered directly into Toto's lips, which took the latter's breath away. But Isshiki didn't have the strength to make even the tiniest movement. It was all just too similar to a dream, one of the sort he already had several times, even though he was aware that this time, it was no dream at all. After a few long seconds, Ron couldn't wait anymore and decided to take the matter into his own hands, pressing his lips against Toto's.  This was the moment when a bunch of fireworks exploded inside the officer, who was so nervous he couldn't even breathe. It was an absolutely innocent kiss, which Ron didn't plan to deepen yet. He placed his hand on the back of Toto's head, softly stroking it and trying to soothe him. Finally, Toto exhaled soundly into the other's lips and visibly relaxed. Noticing this, Ron slightly pressed on his head, forcing him to tilt it forward, and ran his tongue over Isshiki's lips. Isshiki felt his cheeks burn and tightly closed his eyes. He couldn't see that, in reality, Ron was not less nervous than him, but that still didn't stop the latter from putting his tongue into Toto's slightly open mouth. The officer's hands ended up on Ron's neck, while one of Ron's stayed on the back of Isshiki's head and the other on his back, pulling him closer. Ron's lips weren't soft as usually described in sappy prose, but still, as banal as it might sound, sweet from all the sugar. Exactly like Toto had always imagined. He had no clue how to kiss and what to do in situations like these, but his tongue automatically moved towards Ron's that was thoroughly examining his mouth. This caused Ron to emit a strange sound, something between a sigh and a moan, break off the kiss and press his face against Toto's shoulder, while continuing to hug him. "Did I do something wrong?" There was slight panic in Isshiki's voice. How typical of him. "No, I..." Toto could swear never having heard Ron's voice tremble like that before. Even after his attempts to make the murderers kill themselves, the detective, despite being at a complete loss, always managed to keep a bit of his confidence at least while speaking. "I... didn't think that... kissing was so... so embarrassing." Only after having caught his breath, did Toto start to grasp the meaning of these words. No... no way! "Was that your first kiss?" Ron just slightly nodded, without saying a word. Toto couldn't believe it. "And I thought that someone like you has to have a lot of experience concerning these things. Women are throwing themselves at you." "What experience, Toto? I spent five years in isolation, remember?" was Ron's answer, his voice muffled by Toto's shoulder. "Oh, but I read so many romance novels for housewives to pass the time! I did master the theory to perfection, but couldn't put it to use. For about three years out of these five, I wanted to experience myself what it's like to kiss someone you love and whether it was really like in the novels." "So you just used me to work off another item from your list?" Toto wanted to get angry or at least sad, and he was really trying, for he had even a reason, but instead, a happy smile appeared on his face. It was Ron, after all, how was it even possible to get angry at him? Toto had already accepted all his flaws a long time ago, and something like this was, indeed, very typical of him. And putting that aside... had this not been a love confession just now?
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