"Saibou no hanashi" - One Shot Collection

I knew I should cover you with the blanket, but I couldn't. And to be honest, I didn't want to, not now. I was watching the slow movements of your chest, your soft breathing. Your skin was pale, but rosy. Warm, sweet and still a bit humid from the sweat. Lying down next to you again, I started caressing your hair until you would fall asleep. I adore the feeling of your hair between my fingers. Actually, I am used to having my hands stained red, but it's not the same as yours: not wonderful, not soft, nor perfect. But your red is. It's wonderful, soft, and perfect, just like you. I love you so much. You said I shouldn't let you sleep that night, because it was supposed to be only for the two of us, for loving each other until collapsing, for kissing each other until wearing our lips off. Until losing ourselves in one another. Our last night together. I never stopped repeating how much I loved you, even when I didn't have enough air to speak. Even when the sweat had been blurring my view… that gorgeous view: your reddened face, beaded with sweat, while you were holding mine. And your smile, the one only I know. That sweet expression before our last kiss, before reaching the climax. I don't want to forget it. Ever. I love you so much. You were so cute, opening your eyes, frowning and pouting, because I did let you sleep. And despite being exhausted, you wrapped your arms around me once again and pulled me closer. You know I could never resist you. Anything and anyone, but not you. My dry lips were moistened with the help of yours, and I felt your legs rubbing against mine. I took your hands, your soft, delicate hands, and kissed them over and over again. Blessed be your hands for holding my soul. You were tired, I know, and so was I, but this was stronger than that, our feelings for each other were beyond everything mortal beings could understand. And while you were inclined over me, I started kissing and softly biting your entire body. I love you so, so much. And there was that smile again, mixed with a few tears. You let out a last sigh before your defeat, holding on to me, struggling to keep your eyes open, wrapping your legs around mine. As though you already knew that I would wait for you to fall asleep before leaving. Because I hate goodbyes. I watched you sleep for a while, and also slept some time myself. And then I opened my eyes, noticing that you were still asleep. So sweet. So beautiful. So perfect. Now, I did cover you with the blanket. And with the same pen that had begun our story, I wrote you a note: "I love you. 1117" I left it where you would see it after waking up. Nothing can be guaranteed. Neither if I'd return the same I was, nor whether you would still be there… This is what makes it so hard, I suppose. But there was one thing I knew, one I was definitely sure of: I love you, and this won't change neither in this life nor in another. About to be disintegrated, I couldn't help but laugh a bit. It was stupid to do something like that right before dying, but I remembered that I had never called you by your code before, it was always "Sekkekkyuu" or "Red-chan", never Ae3803. But maybe, in another life… I would try to not forget to do it the next time. Because there had to be one.